POLARIODS AND PILLOWS.

twenty one

jimin didnt sleep that night.

the hours rolled by, jungkook's sleeping figure next to him as the occasional snore slipped past his lips. the boy's arms were wrapped tightly around his waist as he slept.

jimin sat up against the headboard, downing the bottle of wine from hours before. there was a lot on his mind, to say the least.

did he like it? yes.
did he regret it? no.
was he ready to persue a relationship with jungkook? he didnt know.
was he over yoongi? absolutely not.

all these thoughts were swirling around his mind like a tornado. it seemed clear to him, that he should let jungkook into his heart. he knew for a fact that he cared. he's proven himself, over and over, jimin would be an idiot to hurt him again.

but then again, love makes you do stupid shit.

yoongi was still engraved into his mind. even if he did get over his infatuation with him, could they still be friends? did jimin even want to be friends?

he didnt know how he felt about anything anymore. he loved jungkook, he loved him so much. he's been with him through everything and more, he cant imagine life without his best friend.

but, he felt the same way about yoongi.

he looked down at jungkook, who was still sleeping soundly. he looked at peace. jimin gently moved a piece of his hair out of the boy's eyes, smiling as his fingers brushed his warm skin. he slowly leaned down, now hovering above his face. pressing a gentle kiss to his temple, he mumbled softly.

"i love you, no matter what."

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jungkook awoke at around 4 am, still in a hungover, sleepy state. it was still dark outside, the bitter cold from outside slowly leaking inside the burning hot room. he rubbed his eyes gently, blinking a few times before looking around.

he was in jimin's room, in jimins bed.

it all hit him at once, various dazed memories from last night corrupting his mind. the things they did. said. felt. it was so surreal, he thought he was dreaming still.

that was, until he looked beside him and jimin was laying there, staring at the ceiling. jungkook blinked once more, thinking his eyes were decieving him.

there's no fucking way... he thought, staring at jimin in disbelief. he didnt know how he felt at all. he was so fucking happy it happened, but he worried about what would happen next. would jimin kick him out, never speak to him again?

"how did you sleep?" jimin whispered, interrupting jungkook's thoughts as he glanced over at the younger boy. jimin's face was almost unreadable, not sad but not exactly happy.

jungkook swallowed thickly before mumbling. "i slept okay." he bit his lip, closing his eyes. he was waiting for jimin to say it. that it was a mistake, that they were both just drunk, that he needed to get dressed and get out.

but, the moment never came. instead, jimin scooted closer, giving a soft peck to jungkooks nose before smiling softly. "im glad. do you.. need any water?" jimin asked, inches away from jungkook's face as he spoke.

"y-you arent mad?" jungkook whispered, staring into jimin's eyes as his fingers twitched. jimin furrowed his eyebrows, shaking his head and pushing their foreheads together.

"jungkook..." jimin began, his voice soft and smooth. "i'm glad this happened. i'm glad it was with you, the person i trust with my life. it was fucking amazing, baby. you're always going to be right next to me, i dont want that to change."

jungkook blinked in disbelief, biting his lip before taking jimins hands in his own. "i dont regret it either, okay? it was the best night of my life. but i know you still love him. we don't have to force anything right now, no labels. anytime i'm with you, romantic or not, im happy. lets just keep it at that." jungkook looked at jimin, kissing his cheek sweetly.

of course, thats not what he wanted to say. he wanted to keep him, tell him that he wants a relationship. but that would do no good for either of them. jimin comes before him, and what jimin wants, jimin gets.

that includes yoongi, sadly.

"i love you. so much. please dont leave my side." jimin mumbled, tucking his head in jungkook's neck and staring at the hickies he left earlier in the night. he kissed each one, being sure to tell jungkook he loved him with more than words.

"i'll never leave your side, no matter what happens."

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// sup

this is still a yoonmin, dont get it twisted LOL

a lot of people wonder why i put jikook in this, but honestly i wanted to make it as realistic as i could. i didnt want to make it like any other story, where they fall in love the first chapter.

theres conflict, little things that matter. its real life. im sorry the storyline is everywhere, but thats life. life is everywhere. i try my hardest to show that in my stories.

but anyways! i made a spam book if you want to know more about me. i always need new friends, so hit me up anytime you feel lonely! im always here.

in additon to that, ive seen a lot of littles here that have no caregiver. the invitation is always here, if you need someone to talk to, or just relax and slip, talk to me if you feel comfortable.

i love you guys! ❤️