WHY DON'T WE

The Truth

My alarm dings. 5 AM. Perfect. I set my alarm during our game last night so that I could wake up to talk to Corbyn.
Text Messages
"Hey, you up?"
"Hey, E."
"Hi."
"I'm sorry." He says. I know he is telling the truth.
"I miss you." I say out of nowhere.
"I miss you too. I know I've been a huge jerk. If you want the truth, the past few months, I've been going through a lot and I always talked to you to escape my problems. And when you and Jonah started dating, I felt like I was going to loose you forever. Especially now that you're engaged- which by the way. CONGRATULATIONS EM! I truly am so happy for you. Anyways uh yeah..."
"Corb, I hate to break it to you, but you'll always be my #1 best friend. No matter how much you hate me, I'll always love you."
"Then why aren't you with me?"
"You want the truth?"
"More than anything."
"Meet me in the hallway."
"Ok"
I get out of bed and slide on my slides. I walk out the door and see Corbyn there. I don't say anything to him; I just give him a hug. "It's because you are the only person in my life, I know I could never loose. If I lost you, Corb, there would be no reason to live anymore." I start to cry. Because I've always hidden my feelings for him. I, like I said, had a crush on him when I first met him, but he had a girlfriend. And I respected that. So I spent as much time with him as possible and we became BEST FRIENDS. I've hid, ever since then, my true feelings for him. And I wasn't lying when I said I've never wanted to cheat on Jonah, but in this moment- I felt like I couldn't hold myself back anymore. Corbyn walks closer to me and wipes the tears off my face. "You love me." He whispers. I nod my head. "But you love me more than you've led on, don't you?" He adds. I nod my head. He lets out a sigh of relief and hugs me. He pulls back away and leans in to kiss me, but I pull back. "I can't." I say. "I can't do that to J. And neither can you. Corbyn, just because this happened doesn't mean I'll break up with him. I love him more than anyone- including you." I say being as kind as possible. "Then why did you just admit to yourself, after so many months of convincing, that you love me?"
"Honestly, I'm really confused right now, Corb. I don't have any clue what to do."
"Then kiss him." I hear from behind me. "See if you like him." In turn around and see Jonah standing there slumped over, he's so tired. "I'm serious. You're confused and so are the both of us. Kiss him and then kiss me and see who you feel most connected to." He says so quiet.
I look at Corbyn, "If that will help you, Emily." He says looking into my soul.
"I already know who I'll choose." I say.
J interrupts, "Just kiss him first. Then me."
I walk over to Corbyn. This is awkward. He moves close to me and puts his hand on my lower back. He pushes me towards him and softly kisses me. It's a simple kiss, with so much love. But the love I feel, is all from him. I...didn't feel anything. I pull back. "I already know my answer. It always has been and always will be you. It just will. Corbyn, I love you so much. But Jonah, he's the one. I know it now. I believe I'm making the right decision." It's so quiet. Every breath sounds like a shout. Every step sounds like a stomp. "Well, I'm glad we tried. I feel better now knowing I did everything possible, instead of just giving up on you." He says with such simplicity, kindness, and truthfulness. "Goodnight, guys." He says as he gives Jonah a hug and me a kiss on the cheek. "Goodnight, Corb." And as the words slip from my lips, I feel like all of the life in me is drained out at once.