Feelings - A Lesbian Story

Chapter Two

The rest of the day flew by, the last bell rang, I hit my locker and headed for the parking lot, from where I parked it was easy to get out and head for the middle school. Pulling up Leo was waiting, he had the biggest smile on his face, "How was your day Skidd?" he tossed his backpack into the back seat. "It was fine, same shit different day." I had to look at him because he didn't usually use words like that, "Leo, what happened?" a horn beeped from behind us, I couldn't stay parked here so I drove us home. In the driveway I stopped him from jumping out, I made him look at me, "Skidd tell me what happened?" he wouldn't meet my eyes... "Just some stupid kids, I had to deal with them last year it'll be fine." I could tell that this was bugging him, "What did these kids do?" still not meeting my eyes, "They just like to bring up that your...gay." Shit! My blood boiled, I wanted to demand he give me their names but I knew that was not how to deal with this, I took a deep breath. "I'm sorry Skidd; I wish that you didn't have to deal with ignorance." It was then that he looked at me, "It's not that, I can deal with them, it's just that I hate that there are other people out there that have to deal with this all the time. People that are like you and they are made to feel that something is wrong with them when there isn't. It's not fair and they don't deserve it, it just makes me sad and angry for them." And suddenly I felt like the Grinch, I swear my heart grew three sizes with the love and pride I had for my brother, I hugged him to me. "You just keep being you Skidd, be the champion warrior that you are, there may be a few kids that see you doing what you do and feel there is hope for them. I know I do, love you kid." I ruffled his hair as I let him go, he smiled big. "I will, thanks for making me feel better. I love you too."

Once inside we headed for the kitchen dropping our bags at the table and hitting the fridge for leftovers, mom wasn't home yet so everything was fair game, I grabbed some of the bacon from this morning and other fixings for a BLT sandwich, Leo turned on the radio so we jammed out while we made our food. I didn't hear the knock on the door but Leo must have cause all I heard was "I'll get it." And he was gone. I didn't really think about it as I took a bite of my sandwich but then I heard Leo get loud, "What are you doing here?" and I remembered that Sam wanted to talk, crap!

I chewed as fast as I could without choking as I hurried back through the house to the front door, swallowing hard I could hear Leo starting to get mad as he started telling her that she needed to leave and she had some nerve coming her after what she did, Sam didn't say anything. "Leo, stop." I said, "No, I got this." He told me, "No, Leo it's okay, I forgot she was coming here. Let her in and go back to the kitchen." He looked at me stunned, he knew everything, I hadn't hidden anything from him back then, he looked from her to me and back. "Are you sure?" I half chuckled, man I loved that kid and how fiercely he cared. "Ya, I'm good. Go eat and start on any homework you have. Sam and I need to talk; we'll be in the den."

He moved out of her way and passed me on his way back to the kitchen giving me unsure look, I nodded at him. Sam stepped into my house for the first time in over a year and a half shutting the door behind her; I turned and walked down the hall a few feet to the den, it was where we kept our small library of books, family photo albums, board games and other odds and ends, there was an old leather couch and a couple of wingback chairs and coffee table. I sat on the couch, she stood there for a moment before deciding to take one of the wingbacks; she looked uncomfortable to be here in my house again.

I just sat there eating my sandwich and looking at her, I wasn't going to let her know how nervous I was, honestly I only kept eating because I didn't know what else to do. I swallowed my bite, set my half-eaten sandwich down on the table and said, "So...why do you suddenly want to be friends again? Is it because you got into the AP program and need someone to help you get through it?" I had no idea where that came from; I felt like I had opened my mouth and a little bit of Mia came out. Sam looked down at her hands in her lap, "No that's not it. You're the reason why I worked so hard to get into the AP program. I wanted to have a chance to see you without the others around."