Feelings - A Lesbian Story

Chapter Seven

As I waited I checked my phone, no more texts from Mia but I knew that she was busy at school too so I wasn't worried. I had my back to the door when she entered, "You wanted me to meet you here?" her voice was hard and flat and her stance told me that she had her armor up. "I asked you here because I wanted to talk to you about what you told me yesterday." The look in her eyes softened a little then, "I appreciate you telling me everything but there is something else I need to know, why tell me now? What did you think I would do or say?" she took a moment, "I guess I was hoping that maybe you would give me a second chance, my feelings for you didn't go away and when I saw you with your friend and the way she looked at you I just...I just had to try." She closed the distance between us, reaching for my hand then leaning in to kiss me, our lips touched for the quickest of moments before I pulled away. "Sam, no, I can't." I stepped back from her; I could see the hurt in her eyes. "Mia and I, we started something. I care for her a lot, I'm not going to hurt her." I closed my eyes and took a breath. "I'm sorry Sam, but this is not going to happen. I care about you but you hurt me, you hurt me badly." She hugged her arms around her middle. "I understand, I'm sorry that I was too late, Mia is a lucky to have you." She turned to go then stopped, "Can we still be friends? Or at least friendly?" I smiled at that and nodded, "I would like that." She smiled back and left.

I knew that Mia wouldn't be overly happy about my conversation with Sam, but I wasn't going to hide that I had talked to her and that I was going to continue to be friendly with her, so when I got home I sent her a text asking her to call me when she had time. Less than a minute later she called, "Miss me soo much that you couldn't wait to hear my voice again?" I couldn't help but smile, I just talking to her made my heart beat a little faster. "Of course, I'd prefer to see you but I'll take what I can get. How was your day?" "Oh, boring and sad without you here. So what's up? Everything okay?" there was an edge to her voice when she asked the questions. "Everything is fine I just wanted to tell you that I talked to Sam at lunch today." I gave her a moment to say something before continuing, "What did you two talk about this time?" "I asked her why she was telling me everything now. She told me that she was hoping that I would give her a chance, that when she saw you and me together she knew she had to try." I couldn't hear Mia in the other end, "Mia? You there?" "Yes...is...is there more?" I cringed; I knew this would be the bad part. "She tried to kiss me but I stopped it. I told her no and that we were together, and she backed off." "What else?" her tone told me that she was not happy, "She said that you were lucky to have me...and she asked if we could be friends or at least friendly." Mia snorted on the other end of the phone, "And what did you say? Wait, let me guess, you said yes, right?" "Well..." she huffed, "Seriously, after everything you're going to be friends with her? I just...I can't do this right now, okay? I'll talk to you later." She hung up.

I knew that it was going to be bad but I didn't think that she was going to spend the rest of the night let alone the rest of the week not talking to me. I tried texting her, calling and leaving voicemails but it all went unanswered, I was being cold-shouldered and it hurt. I didn't really talk to Sam much, I was polite and answered her questions when it pertained to our classes together but other than that I was quiet. Leo was helpful, trying to cheer me up, I had broken and told him everything Tuesday after school, he was happy for me when I told him about me and Mia and supportive when I told him what had happened, did I mention that he is the best little brother anyone could ask for?

Finally Thursday afternoon I called and left one last voicemail, "I know you're still mad but if we are going to make this work you need to call me back. We have plans for tomorrow and over the weekend but if you don't want me to be there then I won't come. I want to be with you Mia, if you don't want me anymore I need you to tell me because I am going to keep trying but I am not going to try forever and then you will lose me." I hoped with everything I had said that she would call, I waited all afternoon, through the evening and into the night; it was late when I finally decided to go to bed. I was just about asleep when my phone vibrated; it wasn't a number I recognized.

Anonymous: She wants you to come, but is scared. The alarm code to her house is 14-21-67, be there before she gets home from school. Make a big gesture.

I didn't know who it was that was helping me but I was going to take it.

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In the morning I dropped Leo off, he agreed to cover for me with mom and dad, I called my school pretending to be my mom and excused myself, and they believed me, it's not like I ditched out very often. After that I headed out of town, I had come up with a plan last night as I lay there not sleeping, a big gesture was a hard thing to do on short notice bit I was going to make it work.

When I got to her house I took my bags in, using the spare key I knew they had and the code to deactivate the alarm. I took my stuff up to her room and got to work, I only hoped that this would work and that she would believe that she was who I wanted to be with.

It took me most of the day to get everything set up how I wanted it and a few trips to a couple of stores for the few things that I needed. I think the hardest part was waiting for her to get home, an hour before she was supposed to get out of school I moved my jeep down the street and around the corner so that she wouldn't see it when she got here. I waited as patiently as I could, I was nervous, every sound made me think that she was coming home then I would look at the clock and only a few minutes had passed since the last time I looked.

Finally, I heard the door open and the alarm being disengaged, I waited quietly for her to come upstairs and see her room. It wasn't long and I heard her footsteps outside the door, the door opened and she didn't move for a moment as she took in what I had set up for her. She crossed to the letter I had left sitting her bed, I could finally see her from my spot in the bathroom; I watched her read it. Carefully I entered her room, being as quiet as I could be; she finished the letter and reached into her pocket for her phone. She sent a text message, I had my phone in my hand, it vibrated. She had texted me!

Mia: Where are you now?

Me: Standing behind you.

Her phone beeped, she read the text and turned, I couldn't help but smile at her, even with tears in her eyes she was the most beautiful person I had ever seen. Seeing me standing there she nearly knocked me over as she fell into my arms hugging me tightly. "What are you doing here?" she asked, she was still holding me tightly. "I told you that you weren't going to lose me, so I wasn't going to let you push me away, not without a fight." I pulled back just enough so that I could look her in the eyes, "You are the one I want to be with." I kissed her then, deeply, passionately, with everything I had, trying to express to her everything I felt for her.

The kiss left us both breathless, and smiling, she was even blushing a little. "Mia I have something to ask you." I held hands as I got down on one knee, I thought her eyes were going to bulge out of her head, "Hold on it's not what you think." I got all set and then looked up at her. "Mia, will you take me to your homecoming dance as your girlfriend?" I reached into my pocket and pulled out a small jewelry box and opened it, no it wasn't a ring, it was a necklace. An eternity symbol, with my birthstone and hers at the center of it on a chain, I hoped that it would symbolize us going forward.

She knelt down in front of me, wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me again, "I want nothing more." She whispered in my ear when she broke our kiss.