"Maa, enoda black jean ega?" I yelled through the hallway. I think she forget to pack them.
I always want things to be prepared.bcoz due to my poor memory i cannot organize things on the moment.then i end up with forgetting things which is most important.
yeah, this is the day, today im gonna leave here,my flight is at 9.pm thinking of leaving them makes my heart ache,igaye irunthadalama ethukaha pohanu nu lam thonuthu but i want to be on my own,i want to explore myself,being in a new place, new university. may be i can get some new friends who knows.
"ne thedurathu ithuva?" Maa asked me holding my old black jeans, not that much old its kindda old. "Ithethan" i said snatching the pant from maa's hand and put them into the luggage.
while im busy searching for my important inner garments,She take a close look on my messy bag and directed her gaze to me i look at her confused, it looks like she need a strong excuse for the mess.
I know why is she looking at me like that "What? _ its your fault to took the pant away" i said not seems convinced. Avaga kovapadlam thappila bcoz avagathan nethu fulla enoda luggage ah pack panaga. Packing is not my thing, im too lazy for that.
"Intha pant kahava ivlovaum kalachi pota ?" She asked i nod my head in response. "Na actually atha pack panave ila_" she said. I gave her a questionable look " why?" I asked cutting her off. "_yenna ne atha pack pana solli kodukala" she said and back to packing.
Im always a mess, the one who always forget things are me. " so what maa? Thats my favorite know" i said "samalikavena" she said. I smiled sheepishly and annoy her the whole noon.
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After finish packing,dad and i took them all in to the hall and mom followed us from the kitchen and pack some bottles having pickle for me and her cousins.
I know both appa and amma had no heart of letting me for that far they not even bother to tell me that i know what they felt deep inside, there are somany pain looming on their eyes but above all they know this is what i want so this is the time i have to step out of my small world.
All luggages edthu vechachu, i have a habit of checking things all again and again so checked my backpack to make sure all papers,my passports are on their place.and,i also mentally revised once last time if what i forget something.
All four of us get in the car and appa started driving to airport, on the way to airport anu gave me a gift that nicely covered with brown wrapper and tied with red ribbon,i smiled and thanked her "ena irku ?" I asked eagerly i dont have much time to open that coz airport is not too far from where we are living. " neye pathu therjiko" she said with a wink.anu always gifts me something crazy or creepy, whatever ethuva irthalum enakuthana.so ,i put that in to my backpack.
After twenty minutes of driving we reached the airport as i said before airport is near us,appa puts my luggages on the trolley there is no much things for me. A luggage full of my cloths and accessory,my backpack contains my personal stuffs.a small cardboard box contains some pickle and stuffs for my mom's cousins.this is always happens here nambalkaha konduporomo ilayo aga irka relations ku kandipa ethachum irkum.
This is time,i turned back to my family i landed my gaze to my already started cring maa..i never once stay out without maa..i ran into her hands and hugged her tightly, my eyes and throats started hurting of holding my tears,i dont want to cry in front of her, she push me so she can see me "dont be careless,eat on time, make your place clean"she said i nod, " i love you and i miss yo_" she started cring again. I hold her chins rub her tears by my thumbs looking in to her eyes " i always be careful with everything and everyone, i promise you see a new me now on and i love you too" i said with a week smile and gave her a last hug.
Then i turn to appa who have a week smile on his face, appa also like me he knows if he cries im gonna broken into pieces so he stay strong,he look in to my eyes and said "life has thought you many things, whatever the situation you go through,fight for what you want" and with a smile he says " dont giveup on you" i nodded and hugged him. What he mean is not about my studies but for me.i was about to leave when he grabs on my wrist turn me and handed me i see a heart shaped pendant necklace what make that beautiful is the pendant have a photo of maa and appa inside.i look he smiled n said "if u miss us open the pendant at look at us.we are always be with you" i smiled thanked him and gave him one last hug.
Anu ran into me and hugged me tightly " are you trying to crush my ribs dude" i said with sarcastic but weak tone.she pulled out and said " take care" i nod, im gonna miss her and her nonsense badly . Centuries before she adviced me for what and what not to do and how to be with people, blablas, and i also requested her to take a visit to my parents home, by remain that i gave her look she gave me a assurable nod.
With a last look i leave them behind me, looking them again and again make me weak, so i carry my things and stepped for my new journey.
