In my life I've made so many
With records of them
In the chimney
Burned to the ashes
I wanna loose what made them
Happen
I've made a mistake every week
Taken pills to end my pain
But all it does
It add to my list again
But I can't tell the one close about the scars
Or the night
The one that makes me shutter at the sight
The notes
And the poems
The thing that makes me owe them
The one that hurt me
A explanation
Or an I'm sorry
Cause I mess up
Every week
Oh such a reacuring thing
Do I write my pain
For the world to see
When I don't even know what's wrong with me
Or do I hide in my covers
And wonder who I am
Do I tell the one who don't understand?
Do I try to be nice to the one that leave
Or do I leave completely
Do I try a little longer in this harder fight
Or do I struggle to end it with all I can try
After the sleepless nights
And days without eating
I loose a pound by the day
And the people are retreating
Asking if I'm okay
And if I'll be eating
But my body is messed up why don't they see it
I wanna be helped but can't find out how
I thought with everything I've gotten
This would be how
But maybe in this time
I'm not meant to see
Maybe in this life
It's just out of reach
So I'll struggle
And I'll fight
And I'll tell you all of this right?
But what no one can see
Is the tears I shed
From what you all don't see
But this is all in my head
And it's my only escape
The words I write on this page
So read them with care
Cause they are all that I have
And don't rip it
If you think it's my last
But keep it safe
Like I try my love
So to all that care thank u
And believe my words
When they are here
Cause they might disappear.
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Poems.... Of Those Words Never Said
PoesiaWords of a broken soul and hopeless dreamer shouted out for the whole world to see