Never Just Right

Chapter 8

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Kisses A. xxx

"Is it a guy? I swear Thali, tell me who it is and I'll personally slap that worthless piece of shit in to the ground! Or," he pauses for a second to catch his breath, he's silent for a second looking awkward,"or is it a girl? You can always talk to me if you want to you know, no matter how long ago we actually talked. You have nothing to be scared of, I'll never judge you."

The only thing I do after he finishes his rambling, is laugh. It is a few minutes of me laughing to the point where tears assemble and start rolling down my cheeks, and him sitting with a slight hint of irritation on his face.

Finally when I start to calm down, I apologize for my outburst and start to speak. "I just couldn't help it you know? I think you would've realized if I was batting for the same team! I mean you've known me for my whole life! Oh my gosh, Shawn!" I finished, trying to hold in another fit of laughter. "Oh okay, that's, ya okay." He stumbles over his words, clearly embarrassed. I swear his cheeks actually have a light pink tint to it.

"Well to answer your actual question, not that you'll be pleased with the answer, I'm not going to tell you what it is about. So you might as well forget it. It's nothing, okay. " I quickly look up into his eyes, only to look away a split second after.

"Why can't you just tell me? Am I really that much of a stranger to you that you can't even talk to me? Or ... I don't know!would you just let me help you!" He exclaims lifting his arms up in frustration.

"It's not you or anything, okay! I just don't want to talk to anyone right now, so just leave it!" I hiss and walk away to my room I'm supposedly sharing with Liz. Not that I actually sleep in it. It's more like a room for her and my luggage.

I remember a few years ago when we all were on the farm, and Shawn and I were spying on Bennett and Clare laughing and talking.
"I want to be like her you know" I say, looking at them and sighing. "Look at her beautiful hair and her hips that aren't as flat as mine. Or her pretty fingers, she can wear as much rings as she likes! I can hardly wear one, for goodness sake! And she is also taller than me! Ugh and she's funny! Why can't I be funny?"

Shawn, who's sitting next to me just shakes his head and rolls his eyes. "I don't see why though! I mean she is like older than you so of course she's going to be taller than you! And you may not be as funny as her, but in other ways I'm sure you're more interesting than her. And maybe when your older you can be funny too. And believe me when I say, I love you way more the way you are. You are my bestest ever friend! And because I'm older than you you are like my bestest ever friend baby sister! How cool!" He exclaims, excitement clear in his voice.

"But she's still prettier than me, that's why Benny loves her." I say sadly.

"Well I love you , so..."

"I love you too!"

"Who do you think you'll want to marry one day?" He asks out of the blue.

"Well definitely not Marco, he may have been my first boyfriend but, he doesn't give me butterflies. And certainly not someone from school." I once again roll my eyes. That boys are just that, BOYS!

"And you?" I ask out of curiosity.

"Maybe Megan, she is really pretty, and we have been talking a lot, but we're still young, so it may change."

"What sort of person is your favourite person?"

"A person, that is different. Someone who can see when I'm hurt, and are not scared of asking why. Someone who sees the good and bad in me, and tries to help me get through the bad and help me become a better person. There's more, but the only example I have Thali, is you."