Breath of the Sea

Chapter 20

Jungkook P.O.V.

That evening I went to the beach at exactly midnight like the recording said. Pulling up to the beach I walk quickly onto the sand.

Breathing in the salt soaked air I look around a realize that nobody else is here

"I'm here baby, I came just as you told me to" I say to the sea

I wish I could just throw the recorder into the ocean and forget all about it. I can't change what life threw at me though and I can't go on pretending that Taehyung is still out there somewhere

I never got the chance to say goodbye to him but now I guess I'm being forced to say goodbye at his favorite spot, where he said he'd come to when he was healthy

I remember he used to talk about wanting to go to the sea all the time but he was too ill to be able to....

Needing to listen to the recorder to be able to move on, I look down at it noticing how the moon catches the light of my ring, the weight of the promise I made to him resurfacing

Making up my mind I hit play on the recorder, knowing I'll never be able to say goodbye to him but wanting to complete his final request

I close my eyes as it begins

"Jungkookie, who am I without you? That's something I ask myself all the time, but I can't picture my life without you in it. But that is love and it works in mysterious ways." He takes a deep breath, "If you have followed my request then you are at the beach at midnight. This is the place where you first realized your feelings for me. Do you remember?"

I pause it, remembering that night. Closing my eyes, I remember how good he looked that night at the bonfire, and the pain I felt when I saw him on the ground. Wishing I could help him but knowing I couldn't.

I open my eyes and gaze out at the dark water of the sea as the memories replay in my mind, and I hit play once more

"I believe our souls have met long before us and are destined to be together throughout all the lifetimes they share. They have been together many times and will come together again."

His words hitting me harder than I had expected

"Nothing can ever separate us. Tell me, do you still feel for me as you once did? Have you been searching for me as I have been searching for you? I'll always be searching for you Jungkook." 

I held the recorder so tight my knuckles begin to turn white. Please tell me it's not over, he can't leave me with just that. I needed there to be more than that

"I prayed over and over and finally got my wish" Taehyung said his voice becoming a whisper "Did you?"

Suddenly the tape comes to a stop. I stare at the recorder in disbelief, what the hell did he mean did I get my wish?? No i didn't get my wish! If I had he would still be here with me

"No" I yelled out to the sea "You can't leave me like this! How could you ask me if I got my wish when you know I couldn't have! You...can't...don't leave me with this" I yell falling to my knees as tears stream down my face

Without the strength to make my way back to the car I just sit there as rain drops begin to fall from the sky. I refuse to go home to an empty house, it didn't change when Taehyung left but I changed. I broke when he left me, people told me I could move on after he died but the truth was that I couldn't

"You told me when we first were together that you knew what would happen. You knew you would not make it to senior year and you didn't let it bother you. You acted as if nothing was wrong just so others wouldn't know anything was wrong. You knew things would turn out like this didn't you? You said you didn't want me to worry about you, but I worried like hell until the last moment I could and now I'm lost without you. I wish I didn't lose you..." I say as the tears run down my face

From behind me, someone says, "I don't think you lost anything"

I turn around ready to tell the person to fuck off, turning so quickly I almost fall over. My eyes widen, Taehyung is standing a few feet from me holding an umbrella so he doesn't get wet.

His hair is a bit longer now and even though it's dark I can tell he put on weight since the last time I had seen him. He looked absolutely amazing, beautiful, and there he was standing without any support, without any oxygen tank with him. That's how I knew I had finally lost it, I'm seeing my boyfriend that's supposed to be dead standing right in front of me

"Jungkook say something.... please" He begs ,moving towards me

After he's directly in front of me he says, "Being this close without touching you is killing me...please say something"

I scan his face, "How are you here?"

He smiles his beautiful smile and answers "I was blessed with lungs. The doctors called a few days after we left here with the news. I wanted to tell you first, but I didn't want to give false hope. There was a chance of me dying on the operating table, and then my body could have rejected the new lungs. But I was able to push through, and here I am. I came as soon as I was able to."

I pull him close, reaching my hand under his shirt, and sure enough there was the rough texture of a scar running along his stomach. I stood there speechless having prayed day after day to have him back in my arms and now that I do, I can't do anything but stare in disbelief

He shivers under my touch and I take my hand out from under his shirt

"I know it's kind of a surprise for me to be here, so if you want to take things slowly that's fine with me" He says looking into my eyes

"Idiot" I say, and kiss him deeply

"I love you so much, and you think I want to take things slowly? I just can't believe you're here. Hell I thought you were dead" I say kissing him once more

"I've missed this so much" Taehyung says, wrapping his arms around me

"I have too, and honestly I could stay here forever" I say

"Well I'd have to disagree, it's raining," he says, gesturing to the sky

"Do you want to go home?" I ask, taking his hand in mine

"Will you carry me?" he asks smiling

I smile back as I pick him up

"I'll carry you wherever you want to go" I say

"I just want to go where you are"

Thank you for reading Breath of the Sea ....did you cry? Cause I did