Instinct Released (Ichigo X Hichigo) EDITING

Chapter Sixteen

Entering the house, I walked straight to my room and opened the door. To my disappointment it was just Kon standing three feet away me. Clearly he wanted to continue onto our conversation, but still not in the mood for it and will never be in the mood for it. Yet when life gives you shit, you throw more than just shit back; however that's not where things went like I had thought.

"I'm guessing this is another sensitive topic since you listened to a guy that shot an arrow at your freak'n face!" Kon shout before walking up to me and kicking my shin. "Damn Ichigo stop trying to be angst and go with how things are settling."

"Kon the last thing I need to do is have a break and allow things to continue out of my control, having people easily manipulate me into doing what they want. Things aren't just gonna slide away anymore." I spoke in response as I collapsed onto my bed with heaven eye lids. "Besides, people are hunting me down or stalking me as we speak so letting things settle would mean good bye Rukia. Good bye Yuzu, Karin and Dad. Good bye to Zangetsu."

With that said, I feel asleep as his dreams never came to visit in his slumber. Only the emptiness of black covered my surroundings with a burden weighing down on me as if I was being asked to do something I can't so no to, no matter how much I wanted to. What the hell is going on?

I was so busy with my exhaustion and this heavy feeling that I didn't even noticed that Shiro's gigai was gone.

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Morning finally came with silence that Orihime hadn't heard in a while. Kon wasn't anywhere to be seen yet her worries for the stuffed loin lead her back towards Ichigo. She just couldn't help it, after all they have been through she just couldn't get him out of her mind. What made these thoughts hurt more was the fact that she knew his heart was with another. But that didn't mean she would just stop having feelings for her crush. The mere thought of him gave her butterflies in her stomach. Even at this moment while she is making her lunch she could feel her face warming up.

Covering her face, she couldn't help but get red in the faces of how pathetic she felt. She should be happy for her friend for finding love, but all she could think about was the heartbreak. She didn't even know if it was true, that Ichigo loved Shiro. Not only that, but she was nearly completely out of the loop of how much struggle Ichigo was going through. She wanted to be there for him but she just can't. Every time she gets near him she wants to get close to him. Hell she wants to protect him all the danger but she is just too weak. She can't do anything right. Not for her brother, and not for Ichigo.

Closing her bento and ready to put it in the bag her vision became blurry. The emotions she kept bottled up were being to eat away at her like wild dog. Her heart just ached and it just wouldn't stop no matter how much she tried to Barry these feelings deep within her.

Carefully picking up the bento, her sight began to clear as her vision focused on on her lunch for the day. The tears were so cold but her sense of touch could only feel the warmth of an idea that brightened up her mind.

What if she just made Ichigo a bento for lunch and ask if he was truly in love with Shiro and in a relationship with the hollow/zanpakuto? If she did that, maybe her heart will finally quite the torment of want Ichigo close to her. There just had to be a way to make the pain go away. Standing around sulking isn't going to help her find the answer to her situation. However, if this doesn't work, she doesn't know how long she could live with this torture.

Then, without a moment of hesitation, Orihime grabbed another bento and placed it on the counter, ready to make a lunch that would satisfy Ichigo's hunger. The problem in that was she didn't know what Ichigo liked to eat. She never really got the chance to ask such questions, because every time she's with Ichigo something bad or serious is happening. Like that would stop her though, she's sure that no matter what she makes Ichigo would enjoy it.