Imperfectly perfect

Chapter 27

Part 3 anyone?(;

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Why, did you leave me here to burn?
I'm way to young to be this hurt.

She looked away, and rubbed her arm lightly. Neglected. Forgotten. Unwanted. The person who gave me so much to look forward to, made me feel so unimportant in a blink of an eye.

I feel doomed in hotel rooms
Staring straight up at the wall
Counting wounds and I am trying to numb them all

She comes to my mind more than I want her too. I see her face whenever I close my eyes at night. I feel her arms her around when I stare at myself through the mirror but, that warmth suddenly fades away. She fades away but the scars she left are still there.

Do you care, do you care?
Why don't you care?

The tears fell from my cheeks as I stared into her eyes. Searching for pain. Searching for any emotion. She never cared about me. She never loved me. You don't hurt someone that you love. You don't cheat on the person you love.

I gave you all of me
My blood, my sweat, my heart and my tears
Why don't you care, why don't you care?

I placed my hand on my chest, everyone in the arena disappeared. I watched as she slowly walked forward, and I took a step back. Completely forgetting that she wasn't on stage with me. Forgetting she wasn't right in front of me.

I gave her four years of myself, love and trust. Four years of my heart. I broke down my walls for her. I opened my heart to her. When things got hard, It never crossed my mind to find someone else. When it came to Lauren and I, I wanted to go through all of the ups and downs with her. I wanted us to argue. I wanted us to fight. I just never expected for her to find someone who can give her what I couldn't.

I was there, I was there, when no one was
Now you're gone and I'm here

I supported her with her career. I was there when she felt like giving up. I held her in my arms. I gave her the love she lacked. The live she's been missing. There was never a time where I felt jealous. When her book went to number one, I was right there beside her. We celebrated all of her accomplishments together. That was my girl. Why wouldn't I be proud of her? Why wouldn't I support her? I guess, that just wasn't enough. I, wasn't enough.

I have questions for you
Number one, tell me who you think you are
You got some nerve trying to tear my caught apart

As I pointed to her, I couldn't control the tears in my eyes. I couldn't control my voice breaking. The first song of the night and already I'm a mess. Why did she come here? Out of all of the times, why now? Almost a year. Why? There wasn't anything she could say or do that'll make me forgive her.

Number two, why would you try and play for me for a fool?
I should of never ever trusted you.

Dinah warned me about her. My parents warned about her. I thought, there was no way she would hurt me. From everything she's been through, there was no way she'd hurt anyone like she's been. The first girl I ever loved, there was no way she would break my heart. I felt stupid. Embarrassed. So embarrassed when she showed up at IHOP with her ex. I felt embarrassed that throughout those four, I never believe she could ever do that to me.

Number three, why weren't you, who you swore that you could be?
I have questions, I got questions haunting me

She lied to me. Lied to me about who she was and how many people can easily capture her attention and steal her heart. Lied to me about the one hung I never believed I could truly find somewhere.