Chpt. |4
C¬assiC ¬inEs & MEnta¬ EnErGy
I didn’t deserve to see the look of concern on her face. My heart was numbed from any feeling but pain as the thought of me being the reason she wanted to die; it disgusted me. She stood there, in her lacey red/black out fit I have given her, just watching me, as if I were an unknown subject. But I was want’s I? I had been forceful with her yes, but never had I imagined it to the extent of her wanting to kill her self. I wanted her mate. I wasn’t some one who knew her. I wanted anything to anyone. I was I disgrace to the world, something that should wither away and die because no one would-
“STOP!!” Rosamond was suddenly on her knees, hands over her ears shaking. I spring up directly at her side, but I was so lost as to what to for her I just stood there wide-eyed and stunted.
“Please…” she slowly raised her head “Please… DON’T EVER THINK THAT AGAIN!” she jumped on me, knocking both of us on to the bed.
My body was on lock down as her words tried to comprehend themselves in my mind. Could she have head what I was thinking? But didn’t any other her thoughts.
“Please… I know I’m the cause of all your distress and of all the tension and of this whole damn war… but we can’t stop, especially you. Your going to be an Alpha…” the last part stung me hard and her other words were a mumble-jumble being thrown around in my brain.
“You have to stay strong!-“ she went on about something but my brain wasn’t quite working.
“KRISTOFF!!!!!!!!” Her scream was the thing that snapped me back to look at her. She looked like she might cry… and it was my fault. I closed my eyes…
SMACK
!!!!!!!!!!!
I sat there, on his chest, breathing hard.
What the- is his problem?!!!
He just looked at me stupidly, like someone who had just woken up in the hospital.
Why was he thinking all those nasty thoughts? I felt sick and shaky seeing him like this.
“Please” I lean my head to rest on his chest. “Please say something. I can stand you looking like this.”
“something” he mumbled, bringing him hands to his face. I stared at him, I couldn’t take it anymore!
“WHO MADE YOU THIS SAD HUH?” I shouted at his face. He blinked at me. “WHO DID IT? I’M TIRED OF BEING LOCKED UP IN YOUR ROOM ALL FREAKING DAY! I NEED TO GO BEAT SOMEONE OF FOR A CHANGE!!!!” I panted for breath. “Well?” after awhile he sighed.
“It’s not you… its Me.” he said threw his hands.
“Wow, pulling out that old line are we now?” I wrenched his hands from him face.
“Just answer the damn question will ya?” I growled in his face. His pained face turned to shame and I felt the need to beat him up.
“I’m sorry.” He said. “It all my fault. I’ve you been so horrible to you, I haven’t respected you, I haven’tbeen there for you, and I’ve been the worst mate in the world- “was he choking up?
“Hey…” I put my face close to his. “No you haven’t, I’m the messed up one.” He let out a dry laugh.
“How can you say that.” He didn’t meet my eyes.
“What do you mean?”
“Me…” I was so confused and he didn’t seem like he knew how to word what he was trying to say.
“You…?”
“Don’t you…! You know…! I… I ALMOST MADE YOU DIE!” His hands were over his face.
“What…?” I breathed, “What are you taking about?!”
“You…” I waited holding breath. “You jumped… from that bridge… AND I WAN’T THERE FOR YOU DAMNIT!”
Oh my god… oh my god! He doesn’t… he thinks…! He was shaking; his whole body, and I could smell the blood coming from his clenched hands. No no no no nononono….!
“Stop! You have to stop!” I tried to ungrasp his hands, I was in panic mode now, I could feel myself hyperventilating, and my eyes start to water.
“Please… please stop.” I whispered, curling up beside him. “It wasn’t you. It wasn’t you; you’re the best thing I’ve ever had. All my life has been hell, but you, you saved me, really. I did jump off that bridge not because of you… but because I hadn’t found you. So please… please…” I felt two hands holding my face and opened my eyes to see Kristoffs yummy, tear stained, face almost touching mine. He opened his mouth to say something but I kissed him there instead.
I had expended so much mental energy, I closed my eyes and was asleep…
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have you noticed i've put alot of sleeping into this book.... i guess i must like it so much, JK
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