The I, I Want to be

P.21 Pain

The next day was one of the worst days ever.

My big sister Deidre, is one most annoying big sister. On the top 10 annoyest sister list she would be on the list.

And then its then they is my computer addicted sister Affera who is only four years old and already have an facebook. She has short black hair and brown eyes.

Lastly is my youngest sister Kimone who is cute and yet she is evil.

The day was not good and not bad.

My big sister Deidre was yelling at me almost every two minute because the babies was cry, and she always makes the babies cry when mom and dad was not there.

Affera cries when she had to say sorry and she hates not having the computer or the IPad.

Kimone wants to give whatever she wants when she wants it and she tries to dance and sing,

I have been baby sitting my baby sister because my mother will pay me for doing so and my big sister loves to criticizing the smallest thing. saying things like 'Disney are making stupid shows.' or 'S/He should get off of that show.'

"Stupid up." I always said in my head when she comment on a show on Disney.

(How can you like the opening song for 'shake it up' and yet not like 'shake it up')

Having my sister always yelling at me for the smallest things. my parents has saying if you get all A's we will give you two hundred dollars. The stress was getting to me and I fall into depression. Not the cutting depression just the mad mood depression and no one in my house know about it.

I had kept listening to 'Still broken by Plan Three, Forgiven by Hymns Of Eden, and So alone by Anna Blue' just because it explain what was happening to me.

And then one day at school I was just not into it at all I want to leave and never come back. I was wearing a blink look on my face for the first two class periods. Halyee did ask what was wrong but I was just out of it like I was not there any more, so I did not answer then. In my second class. I just sat there thinking about all the bad stuff in my life. I feel like a cup of water over flowing. My thoughts then drifted to me dying walking in to the street saying 'I had enough.' and I Thought about my friends since I know that they will be sad if I died. So I put a smile on my face and went on with the rest of my day.

(If i had made you cry a little bit or alot, Yes, and sorry about the sad chacter but i'm not lying I was in a state of depresstion for a long time real because a lot of thing was going though my mind at the time and I could not holdle it. So I splied into depresstion not saiding that it was a good time, I just do not like telling people how I actually feel. But I'm better I just got over it and I still have trouble with me sister and I some time want to have her disappeared My school like is doing fine.)

MyLoverIsGaara is out

not really "I'm going to put a link to the song it my not work but I still want too.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjmm-NzzUHY - Still broken by Plan Three

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GpvxwzjISm4 - Forgiven by Hymms Of Eden

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HjpM0wZ9mqY - So Alone by Anna Blue

And if your like me who like anime music video there is also

One Piece style

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FqW5w6pRUu8 - Still broken by Plan Three

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YHjk-dOgBzM - Forgiven by Hymms Of Eden