The I, I Want to be

P.26 Wanting to Die can't change anything

Three weeks have pass since Gia and John made love.

And before P.E Gia had went to the office and come to the locker room crying.

"Whats wrong." I was the first one to asked.

Gia had walked to the area with the showers and sat on the bench. Me, Scarlett, Addie, Thomasina, Roselynn, and one of the 8th grader that was on Gia bus named Rose come over.

And Gia said the one think that I never wanted her to ever say. "I want to die." With tears running down her face I hugged her near me and she explain what happen.

John had told Gia that he still had feeling for Lori, and had broke up with her. Rugging her back we had to go outside we had stayed in the buliding because it was raining(I think). Gia sat in front of the girls bathroom and cryed. they was only about sixteen on the mats at a time and the rest had to stand and wait.

when my turn was up and went to Gia side and holded her.

Back in the locker room coach had let us out a few minutes early Gia wanted to talk to me and Scarlett and Addie was sitting on the bench with Gia crying.

I started to talk first when everyone had left the room. "I know how you feel like no one is on your side and the only way to fix that is to leave this world but that is not the case you should not want to die or want to kill your self, I have been they I had wanted ro kill my self a few times but I didn't and now im telling you to not do it."

"I know Cheyenne but im still going to do it no matter what you ask and no one would care." Gia said wrapping her tears.

"I would care your my childhood friend Gia if you die I die." Addie said and Scarlett who was quiet this whole time snapped.

"You die I die you guys should not play with you life so easy. Yes life is a rough road and you may feel like you just want to leave it but that is not the choose to make. and you Addie what is with you, you get on my nervous everytime you open your mouth. Can you just shut up for once and not try and get it to everyone business. And Gia wanting to die because some one broke your heart that is just stupid, Your parents do not want to see you die at such a young age. I mean look at you its ok to cry and feel hurt but to want to die because of some guy who does not deserve you now that is just stupid. Look and it like this if a caner kid can have your life right now they would just hug at the opportunity but no they do have so shut up and live on with your life." Scarlett said leaving the room pulling me with her.

Two days later Gia was listed in to rehab and on the day she was leaving her was unlisted in to the hospital.

(Omg they is more they is so much more I had want to say but I do not want to chapter to be long so I have to stop here. ;( but any way)

MyLoverIsGaara is out and smiling in every moment you have because you do not know whhich moment will be your last moment.

im going to end thinks bifferently with a quote I wrote on Muzy...

"A friend will be there til the end and pass that as well and naybe at the beginning to."

if you like it friend me in muzy names. AmberWallace1