Who do you choose?

Finally

                  I couldn't believe what just happened. Jackson, Jackson wang, my angel. He has finally came back to me, I was happy until he started asking questions. I knew he would want answers, I knew he would come back.

As I walked home this was all that I could think about, I told him we couldn't talk then but he could meet me at my house at 8, so we that we could. I couldn't say anything with V sitting next to me, not like he would notice anyways. He still hasn't talked to me and completely ignored me all day so I decided to skip lunch and sit in the library not ready to face him nor the whole Bts yet.

When I got home I was exhausted, I guess it was from all of the hiding and avoiding all day. Since I had a good 3 and a half hours before Jackson got here I decided to take a bath and maybe eat something since I skipped lunch and was practically starving. 

I made me some ramen quick and scarfed them down so fast that I think I forgot to chew. After they were all gone I ran upstairs and started my water.

Since I was a girl I liked my water scorching hot if it didn't burn  my foot when I slipped it in and almost me cry then I didn't want to be in it.

Once I felt the water was so hot it felt like it was boiled in hell, I then put some epsom salt and rose petals in to make my tense ass body relax. I grabbed me some wine and some chocolate covered strawberries from the fridge, dimmed the lights and stared at my masterpiece, a bath fit for a queen.

             I was just relaxing when I realized I was getting pruned, I looked at the clock on the wall and saw that it was 7:45. I don't know how I sat there that long, but with my music playing and drinking all this wineeee.... actually to think about it I'm pretty tipsy but it's not that bad.

I got out of the tub and changed into my pj's I mean I shouldn't have to dress up for Jackson when he's seen me worse. And I'm talking about drugged up and half naked okay.

I have always been a nightgown type of girl, pajama pants made me hot, shorts gave me a huge wedgie, and I always have to pee in the middle of the night so gaint onesies are definitely out of the question.

I looked at the clock it was 8:09 Jackson should be here any minute.

Just then I hear pd a knock at the door, I ran, them I walked remembering that he isn't just visiting he's looking for answers. 

I sat at the door contemplating if I should ignore him, and tell him I went to sleep or went to a friends, or answer. 

Your mom didn't raise a coward~

"Actually my mom didn't raise me at all." I thought aloud then giggled to the fact that I was talking to myself.

Suddenly a noise came from the other side of the door that made me freeze completely.

"Can you open up we really need to talk."

I couldn't open the door, actually I couldn't move at all and I didn't know why. I should be happy but I just couldn't.

"Please, just let me in. Remember we were friends once, or at least I thought we were." He said mumbling the last part.

Finally I grew some balls and opened the door.

Here goes nothing~ 

"Oh, you opened it, I thought I was going to have kick the door." He said kind of chuckling but I could tell that he wasn't joking.

I couldn't believe my eyes he was the last person I thought I'd see... I thought he hated me, why is he here?

"No, I was going to open it I just...." I said lowly not knowing what to really say because I was embarrassed.

"You What?." He said looking at spine with a smirk.

"I thought you hated me. Why are you here?" I said looking down feeling ashamed.

"Because, we needed to talk. Yes I was upset, but no matter what it's me and you against anything." He said smiling at me, but not the usual one.

"You have the right to hate me it's okay." I said finally breaking down.

"I can't do that Ta'lanii I- I tried but I just can't." He said pulling me into a hug while rubbing my back. 

I looked up and he was smiling at me not just smirking but full on smiling, I could never forget that weird but beatiful little smile.

"Why? Why can't you." I said looking up at him.

"B- because I love you, I've loved you since the day I met you and I can't help how I feel." He said tears falling from his eyes.

"Come, inside lets talk okay?" I said smiling reassuring him that everything was okay.

"So, Taehyung. Tell me, when did you start loving me?"

And that was the start of something I knew would never die~