Insecurities

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Lyric POV
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As I woke up I felt a body beside me with their arm around my waist. I must've fallen asleep.

I moved his arm and got up from bed about to get my day started.

Once I finished my hygienes I walked out the bathroom in my robe to find Clarence wide awake.

"Goodmorning."

I covered myself by tying my robe. I hate when Clarence sees me naked. "Goodmorning."

"What you hiding it for I've already seen it. Come here."

I walked over to him and stood between his legs. He grabs the back of my neck pulling it to his face, kissing my forehead then my lips.

As we kissed it became rough, Clarence rubs his hand down to my butt and gripped it.

"Clare stop. It ain't even nothing back there."

"Enough for me. Let me see what's under here."

He said trying to untie my robe, but I stopped him.

"I got too many stretch marks."

"Baby what I tell you about that. I don't care about that your beautiful with or without them." He said kissing my neck.

I was always insecure about my self. But I was never this insecure until after what my father told me.

Just me thinking of it caused me to tear up.

"Baby what's wrong?" Clarence asked grabbing me, sitting me in his lap. I was facing him.

I buried my face in his neck as I cried. He rubbed my back in circles telling me it's going to be alright.

This is another reason why I love Clarence. He makes me feel better, safe, and more comfortable. He knew how sensitive I was about my past.

"Why did he hate me? I didn't do anything for him to treat me that's the way."

"I don't know baby, I don't know," Clarence said as he kissed my temple, still rubbing my back.
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As we pulled up in front of my job, Clarence parked the car.

"You Good baby girl?"

I nodded, still looking out the window. I said nothing the entire ride here. I didn't even make eye contact.

I felt Clarence hand grab my chin and turn my face towards him. He began to peck my lips multiple times making me giggle. He smiled.
"There she goes. That goofy girl I met and fell in love with."

I smiled at his statement. He knew how to make me feel better.

"Enjoy your day at work okay?"

I nodded as I got out of the car. "I love you baby girl."

"I love you too" I closed the door to his car and walked in the building. I looked back watching him as he pulled off.

Time to fight for justice.
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I sat and watched as the defense lawyer stood up to go talk to his client who was sitting beside the judge.

"Goodmorning Alex."

"Goodmorning."

"I understand you are trying to be faced with charges of rape."

He nodded.

"How long have you and Sarah been talking?" He said as he pointed at Sarah while saying her name.

"About 5 months."

"Have you all ever tried to have any sexual intercourse lately before the incident."

"No, but sometimes I would play with her vagina. Or we'll have oral sex."

"Have she ever told you no when you guys had oral sex."

"No she told me she liked it and she wanted to go to another level soon."

I looked at Sarah as she looked at me shaking her head no at his statement. Her eyes were watering and I knew she was about to cry.

"So in this incident when you tried to have intercourse with her, what exactly did Sarah say?"

"We were doing oral sex and she said she wanted to know how it feels. She said some people say it hurts but she's ready. Once we got to it she got nervous and I had to calm her down. But she never told me no or stop."

"No further questions."

"Bullshit," Sarah whispered as I got up to go talk to Alex.

"So your telling me that Sarah being nervous didn't give you a sign that she wasn't ready."

"No."

"So she didn't show anybody language that she was feeling uncomfortable and that you should stop," I said with a little attitude.

"No."

"So she never opened her mouth and said no or stop."

"No."

I put the papers in from of him. "Exhibit C, D, And E show bite marks and bruises left on Sarah's neck, thighs, and back."

He grabbed the pictures and looked at them. It's as if he had a change in his facial expression.

"So you're telling me Sarah wanted those bite marks and bruises on her body?"

He didn't respond he just looks at everyone in the courtroom.

"Answer the question Mr. Jones." The judge said as I stared him down.

"...No" he mumbled.

"So you forcefully pinned her down and raped her leaving bite marks and bruises for her to remember that incident! You raped Sarah and she did tell you no and she told you to stop but you didn't listen did you?"

"Objection!" His lawyer yelled.

He just stared at his lawyer. "Withdrawn, No further questions," I said as I walked to my chair.
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"Have the jury decided?"

One lady stood up. "Yes your honor. In the case of Jones vs Williams, I declare Alex Jones .. Guilty."

I looked over at him as he looked back at his mother who was crying. She was disappointed.

I felt arms wrap around me hugging me.

"Thanks."

I rubbed her back and nodded. This is the part that I love about my job.
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