I Regret It

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this is the last chapter of 'I REGRET IT' and I would like to say thank you so much for reading this weird fanfic :) I'm sorry if I mistype anything, forgive my grammar. and sorry if the plot doesn't make sense... now, enjoy the last chapter, arraseo? don't forget to read my second book, TO FIND HER!

It has been a few days since Jungkook passed away. I still can't get over that fact. I just started to be close to him again, yet he leaves. He leaves, to save my father's life. I'm grateful for that.

But, unfortunately, my father was too old. He didn't make it. Only for three days, until it stops working. I felt so bad. Namjoon oppa told me not to think about it much. But how can't I?

Jungkook sacrificed his life for my appa. While the truth was my appa only survived for a while, before he finally breath, for the last time.

After appa passed away, I stayed with Jieun for awhile. She actually lived in the same house as Jungkook and Namjoon, which is a new information for me. She would cheer me up in any way. I felt like I've burdened her too much, so I decided to return to my house. The first night, I was doing alright. But the next ones, I couldn't stand it. So I lived next door, along Taehyung, Yoongi, Jimin, and Choi Jiyeon, Jimin's girlfriend. And I finally felt the comfort I was longing for.

"Taeri-ah..."

As I tilted my head to the right, I saw Tae smiling to me from the door. He finally allowed himself in. He pulled something out from his pocket, and also a few papers from his bag. From his pocket, he pulled out a small flashdisk. He handed it to me, and then he smiled.

"From Jungkook."

My breath got caught in my troath. I looked at him, who decided to sit next to me.

"Go on Taeri, you have to see what he prepared for you."

[click the audio]

So I did. Once I inserted the flashdisk, it shows one content, so I clicked it. Then the screen turned black, but I started to hear a few piano voices here and there. Then I heard it. I heard his voice. His voice echoing, completed with the rain sound in the background.

Lately I've been thinking, thinking about what we had.
And I know it was hard, it was all that we knew, yeah
Have you been drinking, to take all the pain away?
I wish that I could give you what you deserve.

Cause nothing can ever, ever replace you
Nothing can make me feel like you do, yeah
You know there's no one, I can relate to
I know we won't find a love that's so true

The lyrics were so deep, I started to imagine him standing in front of me. Imagining him singing in front of me, with his eyes looking into mine, his hand holding a red rose. Like the first time he asked me. Then he broke up with me in the most painful way.

There's nothing like us
There's nothing like you and me
together through the storm
There's nothing like us
There's nothing like you and me together, oh

I gave you everything , babe
Everything I had to give
Girl, why would you push me away? yeah
Lost in confusion, like an illusion
You know I'm used to making your day
But that is the past now, we didn't last now
I guess that this is meant to be yeah
Tell me, was it worth it? We were so perfect
But baby I just want you to see

My vision started to turn blurry. A different memory started to enter my brain. When he pretended to be Nochu, how he sang for me when he called me. How he always cheered me up with his jokes and voice.

There's nothing like us
There's nothing like you and me
together through the storm
There's nothing like us
There's nothing like you and me together
There's nothing like us
There's nothing like you and me
together through the storm
There's nothing like us
There's nothing like you and me, together...

When the song ended, I covered my face, as I started to sob uncontrolably, my shoulders are shaking. Taehyung held me close, not saying a thing. Then the last thing that flashed to my brain was when he confessed to me in the hospital. After that, I lost it. I literally cried my lungs out, making Tae's shirt wet with my tears. But he kept his silent.

"Let it all go Taeri. If you hold it to long, it'll be a burden for yourself and for Jungkook. Let him go. I know that's what he want you to do. For Jungkook."

After hearing him say those words, I cried a bit more before finally relaxing in his arms. Yeah, he's right. I shouldn't be sad. He wants me to be happy. Jungkook sure wanted me to live my life happily, right?

I'm doing this for Jungkook. Maybe his burden will float away with this.

Because I want him to know that he must never regret what he did.

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