"First his son and now his husband, God is hitting him way too hard!"
"Don't talk that loud! He will hear you!"
We live in a society where everyone hears only what they want to, where no one gives two shits that words hurt too.
But now words don't hurt anymore, now nothing hurts like before. Now nothing hurts at all.
Not because i got used to it, which could be my case, but because i don't feel anything at all.
"And he's so young! He's only 29 years old!"
I've always been careful with my words, with the way i act.
But who cared about the way i felt? Who cared that i also got hurt?
'Big boys never get hurt'
And i tried to be like my dad. Like my dad after mom died because of cancer, like my dad when the dog died, like my dad when we had no money at all, like my dad when everyone disappointed him.
'Play it cool, no one will know' - but i know.
Too late but i know.
Because dad was always suffering, because dad cried every night, because dad had feelings too.
Do i also have feelings?
Well i did. Not anymore though.
I was always the sick kid. The sick kid that liked boys.
And maybe i didn't make dad proud, but he wasn't going to show it anyway.
"I heard he didn't even cry at their funerals"
Of course. You never knew i cried, why would i let you see me like that?
My appearance was always useful to hide my weak self.
"What? Is he a monster?!"
I've been called many things and definitely worst. I'm only playing the role this society wants me to.
I don't mind words anymore. Words are only words, and they come and go
"Mister Kim, would you like another cup of coffee?"
"That wouldn't be bad at all,secretary Jung"
"I'll bring you one in 5 minutes"
People judge too bad based on the first impressions.
Now you would think that secretary Jung is a nice guy, someone you would like to chill with, but i prefer to see behind the curtains.
Because the real you is who you are when nobody's watching.
I prefer to see the part when secretary Jung becomes Hoseok. The Hoseok that cheats on everyone and everything, the Hoseok that is two-faced
People love to play hide and seek.
But the thing is that....i've aleady played the game 100 times before so i know how to win.
"This is your 5th cup of coffee, sir. Are you sure you want to drink it?"
"Weren't you the one that suggested me to drink some in the first place?"
He nodded, because it was all a part of his plan.
And i smirked because i already knew how he plays.
This smell...it's the same coffee i used to drink with my husband everyday at work and he knew it so damn well.
That's how snakes like him attack.
Bringing memories back is just useless.
"Secretary Jung? Please tell the CEO that i need to meet him as soon as possible."
He didn't question it because he probably knew.
"I want to leave this place,tell him to fire me as soon as possible."
