1 year ago i was happy.
1 year ago, i was actually feeling something.
1 year ago i had a family, i had a husband and a lovely son.
Last year things were perfect, way too perfect to be true
And look at me now. Things are too bad to even think about. Everything that i loved is now gone
'What's like to lose the love of your life and your kid?'
Terrible
At first, i didn't even realise that they were dead.
It was something so unimaginable, because my world never existed without them. Because they were always my other half, the missing part of me.
As much as i hate memories, i can't help but stick to them.
Because they are all that's left. They're all i have.
I had nothing , i made everything from nothing and look at me now, watching how something becomes nothing again.
Pathetic.
-Exactly the word that describes me the best
"How about making a friend?"
"A...friend?"
"I see you're not ready yet. Did you finish the pills i gave you last month?"
"I did, doctor"
"And no supplements okay? The cure to pain isn't something you buy at liquor stores"
"I know. I didn't drink anything since last month."
"That's good, you're making progresses"
His words were followed by seconds of silence, that later became minutes.
"I will move out."
"I'm not surprised at all. A new life apart from all of this mess here sounds great. Where?"
"Gwacheon, Gyeonggi-do"
"A nice and quiet place, it suits you. I'll contact the best psychologist there."
"Do i have to take new pills now that i finished the other ones?"
"Based on how you feel."
"I feel nothing"
"That's also a feeling. Emptiness."
"So do i have to take more pills?"
"Why do you always ask questions if you already know the answers?
"Just to make sure.."
"I'll tell my friend Jin to give you the pills you need"
"I thought you said you'll contact the best psychologist there"
"And who told you that Jin isn't the best?"
"He is the best- and your friend??"
"Doctors tend to be close to each other. I have relationships in the whole country, that's nothing new."
"South Korea is big though.."
"That doesn't stop me at all. Big country = a lot of doctors. And another thing- i used to live in Gyeonggi-do."
"Then why didn't you stay there?"
"My dad was also a doctor in Seoul so my mom wanted me to follow him"
"But did you want to move here?"
"That's not your business at all. I'm the psychologist here, not you"
"I thought we were close"
"A doctor is not a patient's friend"
My bad, i never asked for one.
I'm not even surprised anymore, i'm just speechless.
That awkward silence seems not to leave.
"I see. Now excuse me but i have to pack my things and prepare for the flight. Have a nice day"
I left without waiting for his reply and maybe he knew that he did wrong but just didn't bother to say a thing.
Nice motherfucking people.
