"There you go mister, I'm here now. Happy?"
"Happier than you'd think."
He checked the time and faced Namjoon again with a smile.
"You're even earlier than i expected.
The customer hasn't even arrived."
"Then what the fuck were you sounding so urgent for?"
"Oh come on, it's business, you know how it is right?"
"Are you insane? I broke my leg"
"So what?It was your choice to run on the stairs when the panel right there clearly says not to. That's just how work is. Sometimes you break a leg, sometimes an arm. But no matter what, you gotta continue doing your job, right?" he smiled showing his front teeth.
Namjoon felt like punching him in the face. Because that's how work is. Sometimes you break your boss' face, sometimes his arn.You gotta do your job right?
The tought of punching this man in front of him made Namjoon chuckle. He was sure that time would come soon but until then he could only keep fantasizing.
"Explain. Now."
He didn't even have to ask what was there to explain.
"It's just...i felt really down lately and a lot of thoughts kept running in my mind. That shit consumed the heck out of my energy."
"Namjoon. How many times do i have to tell you that you shouldn't let your personal life affect your job? And you still do the same thing all over again, knowing that here are people that have it worse. You're not the only one who's dealing with depression. Get over it already, you can't run away from the responsibilities you have here."
The same words would always affect Namjoon. It made him feel so worthless, like he didn't deserve to be so sad and moody for everything that happened, like the death of the most important people in his life wasn't something to be depressed over for that long.
He hated the way he felt. Because his husband and kid were more than important and no one should've had the right to say how he needed to feel about the situation.
At least not the one who was in front of him.
"I'm being serious Kim Namjoon. And if this is actually stopping you from doing your job, just contact a psychologist.
You know that what you do is really important, right? And you have no rights to back off from this, not now."
"No."
" 'No' what?"
"No, I won't let this affect my job. And i don't need any of that. I don't need a psychiatrist nor a psychologist"
"We'll see."
