maybe i just want to be yours {zion kuwonu}

~14~

i am in psychology feeling great, but at the same time, i feel like shit because of what i witnessed with zion. including, what brandon and edwin were telling me on saturday. great, because of what happened between brandon and i. when we walked me to my dorm he was so sweet. he didn't mention zion any longer. when i got in my room i balled by eyes out to lydia, and she is also pretty pissed. i used sunday to cool off, but zion had the audacity to keep blowing up my phone. he is in the classroom but on the other side. i decided to sit somewhere else today and at first he sat next to me, but when professor davis walked in, i moved.

"alright, for today's topic we will be talking about the brain in love. today there is a twist because you guys will be putting forth your opinions. so, does anybody have any comments to make about the human brain, in love?" professor davis asks.

i see zion raise his hand and stand up from across the room, "well, love is a beautiful thing, especially when you find the right person. i personally believe in love at first sight, not everybody does. we do stupid things for love, but we never regret our actions."

"what do you think humans do when they are in love?" professor davis asks.

i immediately stand up, "when people are in love they can go as far as doing sexual things or
just do small actions like complimenting or saying 'i love you' and they really mean it. when a person is in love they are deeply affected by the emotions of their significant other and they see no other person but them."

"very well miss castro and mr. kuwonu," professor davis says. zion and i both sit down. he continues, "how do you know if two people are in a relationship just by looking at them?"

once again, i stand up, "if they perform public displays of affection. such as making out, or holding hands. it is especially noticeable when the couple does it in front of friends."

zion stands up, "i disagree, people can make out for fun, or if the person they are with just want it at the moment. it doesn't mean anything unless you feel a connection. holding hands can be done anywhere, parents do it with their kids."

"okay, your holding hands arguments is valid. but your making out argument is stupid. who the hell does it for fun? for me personally, kissing is the most intimate thing you can do with your partner, besides having genuine intercourse with the person you love. a lot of people go around sleeping with random people, but won't make out with them. there is just something about a kiss that is so special in my eyes. some people just waste it on people it should not be wasted on. that is why i haven't had a kiss on the lips yet. no, it isn't sad, i am just saving it," i say.

"well that's just your opinion," zion says.

"okay fine, but going back to the argument, when people make out in public, or just in front of friends and their friends cut them off, and the couple says they forgot that you were right in front of them, i am pretty certain they are a couple," i snap.

"it isn't true for everybody."

"so it's all fun and games for you. it that what you are trying to say? everything is just for fun, you can slobber on a girl, and sleep with her just for fun. also, hitting on girls that are clueless about what to expect is solely for entertainment. alright! but then when you see me talking to other guys you turn demo-"

"i'm going to stop you right there," professor davis says.

"i am very sorry sir. can i please excuse myself for a little while?"