maybe i just want to be yours {zion kuwonu}

~6~

zion stayed in my room for roughly around an hour. it was a time for nick, zion, and lydia to get to know each other. and for me to get to know zion a bit more. turns out, his first name is actually caleb and zion is his middle name. but he likes to use zion, obviously. he is also from ottawa, canada. after socializing, i walk him out of the my dorm.

"where do you live?" i ask.

"oh, i live in an apartment. i don't do on campus living, it isn't for me."

"oh okay, bye!"

"bye, i'll see you tomorrow... beautiful."

i walk away, not knowing what to say. he calls me back over, "i'm not even going to get a hug?"

"damn," i whisper underneath my breath. i go back to him and hug him. this is only the first day of officially meeting this guy and i already get to lay a finger on him.

"today was really fun. i don't want to leave," he says, hugging me tighter.

"well you kind of have to, it is not my policy, it is the school's."

"yea i know."

i can feel his hard, muscular body against my average body. his chin lays perfectly on my head because of the height difference. this is actually really nice. trying to not make it weird, i pull away. "bye," i say.

"bye." he walks away.

i am mixed with so many emotions right now. i am so happy, yet so overwhelmed. i swear i did not think i would ever get that close to him or just ever see him again. today has been literally everything. but i will have to compose myself. i need to know him through and through. if you ask me, his moves are a bit like how a fuckboy would act, but romanic. at this point i don't care if brandon notices me or not, i have zion to talk to me, ah i am such a happy girl. i walk back to my room with the biggest smile on my face. i can't help but smile. then i notice nick leaving, i say bye to him and he says bye to me. i run inside my room and spill out all my emotions to lydia.

"i am so happy!" i exclaim.

"and i am happy for you," she responds.

"doesn't he seem like a great guy?" i say.

"actually, yes. i feel the right vibes with him. and he's really attractive. you're SO lucky that you scored him. all these years of waiting, and you found yourself a dream boy."

...

i wake up so happy. i swear i have never stopped smiling ever since i got those compliments from zion. hm, i would love to test him. not to be conceited or anything, but i looked so good yesterday. today, i have to look not so presentable. i go on and do my regular routine, but today i will not be wearing any makeup, besides lipgloss. i stare at my closet, trying to think of an outfit to wear. oh, i know! i am just going to recreate what i wore coming here. wait, but zion already saw me in sweatpants. then again, it was just a glimpse. instead of wearing my high school sweatpants i am going to wear my UCLA sweatpants. school spirt, am i right? yuck. since it is pretty hot out, i am going to pair it with a white tank top. to make me look more of a bum, i am going to wear slides with socks because i can.

i do the same exact thing as yesterday; grab food then go to class. on my way to class i bump into austin.

"woah, haha did you wake up late or something?"austin asks.

"no, i am simply trying to test a guy that i think is very attractive like, and i believe that he thinks i am too."

"i mean you are ana... but this just proves what i said when you talk super professionally."

"um thank you?" i say, not knowing if what he said is a compliment or not.

"wait! since you found a guy, does that mean i don't have to talk to brandon about you?" he asks.

"no you don't have to anymore."

"yes!" he exclaims.

"well, i have to go. my class is going to start soon."

"yea, a scholar. anyway, i didn't even get to say what i wanted to say."

"well make it quick," i say, rushing him.

"there's a game next week, you have to come. you need to come, like you NEED. it's proven that i perform better when you cheer for me, like i'm not kidding."

i laugh, "oh geez, i know. yea i am going to go. you know you could have texted me? or told me the day before, austin, it is a week away."

"well i just want to drill it in your brain."

"it is drilled, you still have a week to bother me about it. oh i can't wait for that!"

"you know it!" he exclaims.

"ugh, you are so annoying."

we both walk our separate ways and before i know it i am in the classroom. zion is already sitting where he sat yesterday. i walk over to him.

"magandang umaga, princesa!" *good morning princess* he exclaims.

i laugh, considering his awful pronunciation. "um, you know tagalog?"

"only that line, i google translated it. but you're filipino, i got to impress some how."

"oh please, the first time i saw you-" FUCK! oh you are so stupid ana.

"the first time you saw me, i already impressed you," he finishes.

"i am just going to go ahead and kill my self." i try to walk away, but he grabs my arm.

"there's nothing to be embarrassed about."

you're kidding right? i walk it off and without saying anything, i sit down.

"okay, so today we will be learning about the human brain. how it is so interesting, and how it's so unpredictable," mr. davis says.

the class lecture was pretty fascinating. i can not wait until we can present our opinions to the class. after class, i get up out of my seat and zion grabs my arm, "in a rush?"

"no, i just want to go to my room. why?"

"what are your plans for tonight?"

"um binge watch movies on netflix while eating ice cream," i say quickly. it is a thing i do every tuesday, i NEVER miss it, i have to have some me time somehow.

"is anybody going to be with you?"

"no, on tuesday's lydia stays with nick. the movie and ice cream time i do is just for me."

"well can i join you? not to be creepy or anything, i just want to spend some time with you. don't worry, i will stay in my lane." that sounded really genuine. you know what? since he is a nice guy and lydia approves of him, i will give him a chance. "sure, why not? just make sure you stay in your lane, i will literally put a barrier between us." i say. he does seem like a gentleman, i do not think he will make a move on me. but i have to be sure of myself.

"wow the other guys that tried to flirt with you before must have had a hard time. you're going to be a challenge, i like that." he smiles.

"well um, actually... yes i have been flirted with a lot but i was never really interested in them."

"so that means that you've never been in a relationship before?" he asks.

"nope, not a single relationship! no sexual interactions either, unless you count hugging." i say pretty proudly. his jaw drops, not believing what i just told him.

"let me guess, you probably lost your virginity in high school, um i am going to say you have been in many relationships in the past," i say.

"pretty accurate... BUT, it's not like those relationships were serious or anything. like i don't think i was ever in love," he says. seems about right.

"see that is why i am waiting, i am waiting to actually fall in love with someone."