maybe i just want to be yours {zion kuwonu}

~17~

class ends and zion and i start to walk to my dorm room. zion stops in the middle of us walking. "wait i need a change of clothes. you can go to your room while i go to the frat house and get clothes," he says. i nod my head and i walk away. suddenly, he grabs my arm for no reason.

"yes?" i ask.

"i can grab some food on the way. what do you want?"

here is the thing about me. i am not those types of girls that will order a salad so i won't look like a "slob" eating in front of a guy i like. if he thinks i do not eat lady like, then he is not a keeper. "burgers and fries."

"wow," he says.

"what?"

"most girls would tell me to choose."

"okay, whatever. anyway you can go to any burger place. i want a burger WITHOUT cheese. i am fine with tomatoes, onions, lettuce, and condiments. just whatever you do, DO NOT let them put cheese. and i want the fries extra crispy please. i have ice cream... and milk... and a blender. i will make us shakes," i say all in one breath.

"a girl that knows what she wants. you are definitely a keeper." he smirks. i push him to the other side and he laughs and walks away. i really love the fact that he appreciates my differences. it is nice, and comforting.

i walk over to my dorm room and lydia is inside. it is going to be hard to tell her that zion and i are back to normal. i know she is going to be disappointed. more importantly, she is not supposed to be here.

"um, why are you here, aren't you supposed to be gone? where's nick?" i ask.

"oh he's just running a bit late," she says.

"okay... because i need this room to myself for tonight and a bit of tomorrow morning. remember ana's lonely tuesdays."

"are you still upset about that zion thing? because if you are, instead of nick and i going out, the three of us can go to the movies," she suggests.

"haha no thank you, all the times i went with you guys i was always a third wheel."

"well today that will not happen."

"it's okay... actually, zion and i are okay. he's coming over to watch movies with me... and he'll sleep over."

"WHAT?!" she screams.

i explain everything to her. i also bring up what he did the last time he slept over to ensure her that i am going to be fine. she is a bit iffy about it, but despite what zion did, she still wants me to give him a second chance. she also gets really good vibes from him.

"okay, fine. but if he hurts you again. i am going to jump him with nick and austin."

"whatever. also brandon and i had another interaction."

"TELL ME!" she demands.

"long story short: after class he invited zion and i to watch them practice. i kissed his cheek in front of everyone and they all started to cheer for us. he also kissed mines. zion saw, and now he's trying extra hard, it's kind of funny. get this, austin would rather have me dating brandon." she looks shocked at the last sentence i just said. but she is also happy for me.

"you know, i didn't approve of brandon but it seems like he is actually making you happy. i just need to talk to him to see if he is okay for you. but again, whatever makes my best friend happy will make me happy."

"hahahaha that's the cheesiest line of the century."

we both laugh and nick walks in. but he walks in with edwin.

"let's go!" nick excitedly says.

"who's that?" lydia asks pointing at edwin.

"his name is edwin i bumped into him and we are already really good friends," nick explains.

"hey edwin!" i say, getting up to hug him.

"hey ana," he says back.

"you two know each other?" nick asks.

"yup! and i am not going to explain it."

the three of them walk out of the house. i wonder what's going to happen with edwin. they are either going to have a double date, which consists of tiffany being a part of it, edwin is going to be third wheeling, or they are going to drop him off on the way to wherever lydia and nick are going.

it has been a little over twenty minutes and zion is not here. well i have to consider the fact that he is going to buy us food and i do not know how far away the frat house is.

oh! i haven't even changed yet. i'll go do that. i go to my closet and pick out my fluffy baby blue pajama pants. i really like them, they have cloud prints all over them. i also pick out a basic white t shirt.

i start to make the milkshakes and i sing a song:
through drought and famine, natural disasters my baby has been around for me.
kingdoms have fallen, angeles be callin' none of that can ever make me leave.
every time i look into your eyes i see it. you're all i need. every time i get a bit inside i feel it. ooh who could've thought i'd get you?
ooh who could've thought i'd get you?

a voice that sounds familiar starts to sing too. but i can not put my finger on who it is:
and when we're making love, your cries they can be heard from far and wide. it's only the two of us. everything i need's between those things. every time i look into your eyes i see it. you're all i need. every time i get a bit inside i feel it.

i stay turned around scooping the ice cream into the blender. the person who is singing puts his hands on my hips. i feel safe, i know this is zion. "come on keep singing," he gently says. we start to sing together, and may i add in perfect harmony.

ooh who could've thought i'd get you? oh yea, oh yea babe.
ooh who could've thought i'd get you?

i am completely star stuck. i turn around and his arms are wrapped around me. i do not mind it. he smiles, i smile, we are both smiling staring at each other with lovey dovey eyes. he leans in for a kiss and i am completely taken in. i do not even back out, i lean in as well. his lips are soft. i have never kissed anyone before, but he has. i do not know what to do, this gesture is foreign to me. he puts in his tongue, and everything starts to fall in place. we back up together, while making out. we sit on my bed and he grabs my face gently. he becomes a bit aggressive with the kiss, but i does not bother me. flames start to ignite in my stomach. i have never felt this feeling before, it feels nice.

we both pull away. "was that a good experience for your first kiss?" he asks.

"it was something." i smile. it was amazing.

"now can i have you all to myself?"

"no, not yet. i wasn't even supposed to kiss you. i was being impulsive."

"yea... okay. but! i am not going to give up on you."

"i know you won't. on another note! who knew you could sing?"

"i get that. i sing and i play guitar. i'm really into music."

"i need a guitar player."

"i'm all yours baby." wow. no, this is not normal. i can feel butterflies flying around in my stomach. as well as the same tingling feeling i feel when brandon calls me "babe". it's just now it's a lot more stronger. it is so weird how one word can make you feel all sorts of ways.

"oh gosh. i mean i need a guitar player to play for me at the bar i sing in."

"okay, i'm down. just as long as you're around."

i laugh. "you just killed it."