Guide on becoming a Kpop Idol

Idol School Experience : Jessica

(What I wrote below is the actual words that she said in the vlog since you might get some thought about a particular part)

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Hey guys it's Jessica here and this is the Idol School Experience video which you guys have been waiting for.

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Okay so first of all... I am extremely happy that I got eliminated.

And yes, I know, you guys will be pretty surprised why am I so happy with my elimination.

So I'm gonna be talking about the reason for that in this video.

So. Back to the time when I just first saw the teaser of Idol School. When I first saw the teaser of Idol School, I was like "What the hell is this?" "What is that they're trying to do?" But of course, not in a bad way. I was pretty positive about the program. I was like "Oh, concept of school, it's a pretty cool concept." Maybe it's gonna be really fun though if you go here.

And luckily, I got the opportunity to actually go there in Idol School. I was pretty happy and excited.

I was in the Philippines at that time and I just went back to Korea for that program. Then I promised myself to get this answer to this question, "Is Kpop Idol a right job for me? Does that job really suit me?" Cause you know, I've had a lot of experiences related to Kpop before. I've been a trainee, I used to perform on this music shows but I ended up quitting and just coming back here in the Philippines which was such a huge life turning point for me.

I just hated myself honestly for getting tempted to do it again, to try it again but I just thought of it as my last try.

However, unfortunately, I got the answer to that question on the first day.

I was like, "Okay, oh I regret coming here. Why did I come here? Why am I here between those amazing, pretty and talented people. Why am I here like, I just got so angry at myself for coming there.

You would probably know the people there and they're amazing. First of all, they're really pretty and a bunch of them are pretty talented. They're good at singing, they're good at dancing, they're cute. They got the celebrity kind-of style and everything. I was just pretty down. On the first day when I entered the classroom... like, I can't forget that moment.

I felt like I was in a flower garden. Like they are all pretty.  Yeah, I just didn't see the possibility for me. I truly got to look at myself as a Kpop idol objectively in there cause there are a lot of people and there are a lot of pros who are really know well about Kpop.

I just really found myself not-so applicable for a Kpop Idol. I lost a lot or confidence actually when it comes to dancing and singing. I was not cute, I mean you know I'm not cute, I'm not cute. So that's basically the time when I already got the answer to my question. 

And of course the diet comes in here. I can't, I can't do diet. So that was one of the struggles I had in Idol School. Though, I'm really thankful to Idol School for even letting me join that program because I really got to get the answer to my question.

I'm done with Kpop now.

I'm not gonna do it again.

I'm not gonna struggle in my life because of Kpop or atleast because of Kpop.

Also, I was pretty happy that I met friends there. I never had Korean friends before cause I left the country when I was really young.

Looking at the dorm. I cannot be not be close to them. There were two English speakers there, Haerin and Jenny. I miss them so much.

I'm also thankful that I got to meet amazing teachers there, they're really ambitious about teaching us.

I also learn about the power of Youtube in there. You guys don't know that I don't really have much subscribes. If three people recognize me in there as a youtuber: Jiheon, Yuri and Siwon.

Eventually, those were the things that I felt when I was in Idol School and I'm just gonna accept my consequence and don't regret anymore coming in Idol School.

It was such a good experience meeting amazing people, learning new things.

Although my dream is a Kpop just ended in here, I am still taking my experience as an amazing memory. I'll never take it for granted.

So hope you guys will also have enough experience on the things that you are interested into until you get the clear answer to my case, uhm, I can't. Yea, I can't be a Kpop, I... don't think I can be a Kpop , I'm not comfortable with it.

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Alright, so thanks for watching this video. I hope you guys enjoyed it. Was I too honest or something? But you know, I have to be honest to my channel. At least in my channel, if not in my channel, where can I say those. I can't tell that I was really happy that I got eliminated in.. Mnet, right? This is the only place I can say and then, it's the only place that I can share so hope you guys like it and I see you guys in the next video.

bye.

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