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He turned to look at me and we held eye contact while tears fell from my eye's slowly burning them 'Y/N are you alright?' Lydia asked'....no....' I said quietly and Alison put a hand on my shoulder but I shook it off and I lightly ran and I ran straight into someone I really didn't want to see now..... Stiles....since I bumped into him it made me stumble 'what the...' he started but he softened when he saw me in tears,I stopped and looked at him for a couple of seconds before a new wave of tears started and I just ran past him straight out of school

My heart was beating a thousand times a second....I have nothing..... I've lost everything.... nobody wants me..... I'm all alone..... I kept repeating those words over and over again

I drove to my house and ran into my room and blizzard ran up to me and I hugged him tightly
'I love you' I whispered and he barked making he laughe threw tears 'okey blizzard Mumm's gonna leave soon Ok..... I'll find someone to take care of you.... someone to love you more than I can.... I promise...it just looks like you're the only one who wants me here' I said threw quiet sobs 'Im sorry I let everyone down.... I just.... I'm over it.... I can't fight anymore' I said standing up and walking too my desk grabbing a peace of paper and a pen

I took a deep shaky breath and started writing for the last time

Dear,Scott

I admit I haven't known you for very long but just know that I love you like I've known you forever

Your my only brother and I can't even explain how much I love you....your one of the reasons why I've stayed strong for so long.... but you're also one of the reasons I'm gone now

You never believed me....you were always so blinded by Mia... she's manipulative like that...She was my best friend back home,but she hated me becouse I was so nice to everyone...but then again your just to blind too see that she's using you and your just too stupid to listen to the one person who truly loves you... Allison... she's the one... don't let her slip away like I did

I could always see it in your eyes ya know?...How you really felt about me....you never really liked me in the first place,I remember the disappointed in your eyes when I first showed up.... but it's alright....I don't like me eather

But Scott please don't hate me

Please don't hate yourself

please don't be sad

be happy

be happy that I'm finally gone

take care of everyone

this is not your fault

You couldn't save me..so goodbye now I'll miss you...

Love,N/N

I took the peace of paper and put it in a envelope and wrote his name on it.

I took another piece of paper with a shaky breath and started to write again but this time to my best friend

Dear Issac

Oh man I can't believe I'm doing this....

How can I put this down into words when it's almost too much for me?

I'm so sorry for shouting at you and letting you down....you are my best friend and I'm so thankful for knowing you even tho it was just for a little while....and I'm sorry becouse I know how much I'm hurting you by doing this.....just know that I love you and nothing can change that...uhh you disserve so much better

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