You give me Hope. (Kellin Quinn fic)

-Chapter Twelve-

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all i could do was  lay there, thinking about him. He was absolutely perfect and I just couldn't get enough of him. His smile could make the stars look dull, his eyes were so bright and beautiful and I could stare into them forever, his hair was perfect and long and surrounded his face quite nicely, and his voice... it was echoing in m head I just wanted to listen to it... I need to hear him. I miss him so much...

I must have fallen asleep because my grandmother came in with dinner for me and I didn't remember how that cold wet spot got onto the pillow.

"oh that's okay grandma I'm not hungry"  I feel bad because it looks good and it seems like she worked hard to cook it.

Her face fell and she backed out saying sorry a ton of times.

"wait, grandma ill take it"

She smiles and comes in to set it on my nightstand.

"thank you" I tell her and give her a little kiss on her cheek.

"You're welcome" she sits on the end of my bed. " so whats the deal with this Kellin guy?" she winks at me "tell me all about him"

I sit up and get a little excited because I loved talking about him

" well he is tall, tan and has long back hair that kind of swoops to one side" I told her while using a hand gesture to help with picturing how amazing his hair was.

"his eyes are greenish blue and they shimmer in the sun so nicely, his smile is beautiful also." I continue going into a daze, I feel a smile form on my lips and I knew i loved him.

"he's so perfect grandma, I think I love him, do you think its too quickly though? we've known each other for a month or so, yeah I'm crazy, this is crazy, I don't even know what love is-"

she interrupts me and puts her hand on my shoulder reassuringly.  "Hope, honey you can feel whatever you feel is right, you could know him for a week, a month, or a year and it wouldn't matter when you feel that you are in love, but do you know for sure you are in love with him, or the idea of falling in love?"

she made me think for a while.

"I just love everything about him, I can see no flaws and he's in a band -" I had just not realized something

"Grandma, what's today?" she takes a look at my calendar for a second

"Thursday, December 3rd, why?"

I jump up and run to my phone and dial Kellins number without answering my grandma.

it rings a few times before I hear a "Hello Miss Hope" I smiled and immediately apologized

" I'm so sorry I didn't go to your band performance on Saturday, I was with my... my mom and then I had bashed my head against the wall and went unconscious"

"Hope please please do not apologize, I totally forgot to tell you that it had been moved to The 19th Of December because our drummer Gabe got the stomach flu"

That's in 16 days on a Saturday. I thought.

I looked at my calendar and grabbed a sharpie to mark it.

"Okay well how will I pay for it? I don't really have money right now" he laughs then he tells me " I have your ticket already, and ill give you a flyer that says when and where it is, ill even pick you up"

" oh Kellin you are so adorable, I could have my grandma take me though" I turn around to see she wasn't there "yeah ill have to ask her..."

"Okay beautiful,  ill see you at school... tomorrow?"

"I'm going back Monday, they gave me the whole week off."

"Aw okay. ill miss you."

"ill miss you way more"

" its late ill let you get some sleep"

"Okay handsome, good night"

"goodnight"

he always had to have the last word, I liked hearing his voice anyways so that wasn't necessarily a bad thing.

I get ready for bed and then cuddle under my covers, my bed is so comfortable,  I didn't wake up in the middle of the night like in the rock hard hospital bed. You would think they'd be more comfortable being that people who are in pain have to lie in them.

The morning was very nice, waking up later than 7 was always nice. I made myself breakfast then sat down to watch some tv by myself, since my grandma was out shopping or something like she always does. I couldn't wait for the concert in a couple weeks.

The rest of the day was boring and I slept and texted Kellin while he was in class and watched tv and ate and of course went on tumblr.

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idk I ran out of things to say at the end. ill stop here and save the rest for chapter 13.

KAYYY.