Another Side of Me

Chapter 9 - Revive

Nicholas stormed into my office as Jourdan went after him with a very terrified look.

"What the hell is this Lex?" He said as he raised a paper he was holding and throw it on my desk.

"A paper?" I said puzzled. I furrowed my brow trying to recall what I did to deserve this.

"Your Resignation Letter Lex."

'Oh right.' I thought to myself.

Jourdan still stand on the edge of the door with a shocked expression on her face.

"That's okay Jo. Please close the door." I nodded at her as a signal for her to see herself out. She got out of my office and closed the door.

I looked at Nick. He looked very upset.

"Please explain why is that paper on my desk this morning?" He said as he pointed to the paper.

"Uh because I'm resigning and I'm supposed to notify the board?"

He shook his head. "I know, but that is not what I mean. What I mean is, why are you quitting? You are doing very well here Lex."

"I came to a realization that I am suffocating here Nick. I needed to be free. I needed to breath again."

"What are you saying Lex?" He asked with a very confused tone. "I thought you are happy working here."

"I was. But as the magazine grew, I'm starting to lose myself in it. All my life I've always wanted to make something and I feel like there's nothing more I can give to this company."

"Come on Lex, we can make some adjustments here. Just say what you need and I will make it happen."

"I can't Nick. You and I both know the only thing this magazine's willing to change for is for it's own benefit only. My decision is final."

"So what are you even going to do after this Lex?" He sighed in desperation.

"It is none of your concern." I said as I smile.

"You're making a huge mistake Lex. Please think about this."

I shook my head. "No, I'm not. I have thought about it." I gave him a half smile. "When I think about my life, I ask myself this simple question : 'Is this what I'm going to do with the rest of my life? Shaping the public's opinion about things like 'having a Prada bag to belong is more important than most things in life.'' And my answer is, absolutely not. So yeah Nick, I don't think I'm making a huge mistake." I explained.

There was a disappointment in his face. As he was about to leave, he looked at me and said, "Oh yeah, you need to recommend someone who you see fit to replace you as an Editor-in-Chief to the board. Do you have someone in mind?"

"Jourdan Willson Smith." I said without a doubt as there was a slight shock in his face.

He stood there for a minute thinking what I just said and he answered "Okay." And he left my office. I took a deep breath and smiled as I continued to work and make the best out of my last month as chief in the Women's Magazine. A part of me feels like I'm going to miss this place, but a huge part of me feels so exhilarated. 

As I was heading home, all I can think about was Abby. She's on my mind a lot these days. I really like having her around and just talk about things. We talked about a lot of things and we clicked. She's really smart, funny, charismatic, positive and compassionate human being. The kind of person that makes you feel good by being around them. I am really attracted to her. But we haven't talked since our dinner a couple of weeks ago. The only thing that's been holding me back is she's a single mom of a 3 year old and I don't know how to feel about that.