Almost
I almost killed myself
With mythical happy pills,
Just two more and my body will forever be still.
Just almost.
And he almost did not notice
But he did.
And told me it will be ok
and held my hand when we walked to the doctor's room,
I almost did not know that he loves me.
Just almost.
And the doctor said I am almost better.
I just need to know that dark
Is not the only way to describe the world
And I almost believe him
he said it is ok to be
Just almost.
And my friend almost ended her life,
But she did not,
And she is still here with me.
And I almost lied to her that I think that is called hope,
Just almost.
And I am almost stronger today,
After all the treatment,
The relapse,
And the sadness.
Just almost.
I feels like I almost know the answer
Of why I am still here
Standing straight and facing
The world upon me.
Just almost.
