I want to die. I don't know why. My in home therapist told me to let go of josh because it will never work out. I will never be able to date him.
Today I cried at my job. Shit, I crying right now!!!!
I also purged today. For the first time in months.
Lord help me.
Bryan is so annoying. He is always picking on my and calling me names. I hate him. I hate everything!!
Today Bryan texted my mom saying"hey it's josh and I've been talking to Cameron."
I'm not aloud to be talking to josh, so my mom got PISSED at me!!! She isn't believing me when I say I didn't do it!! I fucking hate everything!!! My day is not going well!
And tonight I used my moms phone to ask josh if he wants to be friends with me again and he said "idfc" then I was like "I need a yes or no answer." And he said ," Jesus fucking Christ yes!!" Tht hurt SOOO much! I love him but he doesn't love me back. Anyone else have tht going on? It f-ing sucks!!! I just want to curl into a ball of tears and die.
Now zach is ignoring me!! This is y I'm bi! Cus I can't deal with guys! They don't know anything bout girls and they dont know what to say half the time!! I miss my ex Matt.
I'll update later. Bye.
It's 9pm and I'm lying in bed about to go to sleep. I just want to sleep and never wake up. Ever. Night world.
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RandomOk, so I need to write. Write out all my feelings. Some stuff I will keep to myself. But I want everyone to see what it's like to be me. I won't write everyday but I will write.
