I just saw the shadows again.
I don't know what to do anymore....
Ugh. My day was eh. My mom won't stop babying me about this trip with my dad!!! I don't want to go and I'm not going!
You can't run from death. Death is inevitable. Death will get you. Honestly, I'm scared of dying. I don't want to die. But sometimes I do. But I'm not a suicidal girl even though I was like 4 months ago.
I have been to a hospital twice. For depression,anxiety,suicide problems, cutting, and anger issues. My anger issues are doing better. But when I get mad, I'm like the female version of a hulk.
I have practiced
I'm falling apart. A person can hold a gun to my head and I will say,"go ahead."
I will never have love. I will never be loved like people are loved in stories. I will never have that. I will never have someone to call mine. I will never be able to hold a hand or get a kiss or laugh with someone. I'm going to die alone. I'm going to be a depressed old lady. I'm going to be that person that is always alone of valentines day. I've never had a valentine. Ever. I just watch the notebook and cry my eyes out.
My mom is pissed at me. What's new?
YOU ARE READING
Journal.
DiversosOk, so I need to write. Write out all my feelings. Some stuff I will keep to myself. But I want everyone to see what it's like to be me. I won't write everyday but I will write.
