All it takes, is 1 digit from a phone number to be typed in incorrectly, replaced with another, and you find yourself speaking to the wrong person.
But for her, It couldn't be anyone better.... If he admits to who he is and she believes it. // Thi...
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MAYBE GIVE 'SLEEPING AT LAST' By 'Saturn' a listen to whilst reading... You won't regret it 😍😍💖💖
Morning beautiful X💖🌹
Sleep well? Xx
I hope you have a lovely day.
Think I got about an hour's sleep last night. Shattered 💤
You've been on my mind a lot. I know you don't care to hear it. I just feel like I'm not functioning right without you around xx
I already miss you, above and beyond imaginable 💔
Is that ridiculous?
I genuinely hope you're ok and well Less... X
Doing anything spontaneous with yourself today love?
I'm praying to just hear something back... Xx
26 messages. Really?! 🙄
U REPLIED! Talk. Please. XXX
I will block. Please stop.
You don't want me to, not really....
I really do.
But you don't!
... But I do, Matthew! 😒
You'd have blocked me by now, i know you 😊🤷
And yet I know nothing about you, that's what led to this.
Lessia... 💔 Xx
Because every time I feel I'm getting somewhere, something stops it.
Me?
LIFE Matty.
You can't be superstitious like that....
Why?!! You were the one claiming fate led you to drunkenly text me accidentally.
😂😂 I'll give you that then. But don't think negatively. Don't think too far ahead. Not yet. Yes things haven't been the simplest so far. But come on, it's inevitable it wasn't going to be. This is me here... Have you heard of me ever being normal or basic for that matter.
Yeah, you. Matty Healy. Famous. Rich, idolised to death and loved by more than you could fathom.
I'm trying, love. But I need to be met half way. Help me x
And this is me. Broke. Lonely. Afraid... The complete opposite of you! They only thing I can figure we have in common is your music 🤷😏
Is there any point trying???...
YES. YOU ARE THE POINT!!!
YOU THINK MY LIFE IS PERFECT!??!! You think I don't struggle just as much when the sun goes down and the night draws in? When the demons come out of my imagination to face me. You think I have it easy, you get to hide away Alessia, imagine going through what you're going through, these struggles but with being watched continuously by thousand upon thousands. But I'm not allowed to break, am I?! Because I'm Matty-fucking-Healy. I have to be invincible. Untouchable. Perfect even.
😢 No one is asking that of you Matthew x
But it's expected. That's the life I signed up for. What it entails. How it has to be. It's life, my life. And it's hard, impossible some days. X
How do you cope?
Come on love, you've seen the tabloids. The shit online. Drugs, drink. Self soothing. Whatever I have to do to sleep for days. Whatever I need to do to block it out. You go to any lengths. People have this perception of me that I'm this amazing wordsmith, that it comes naturally to me, but when it comes to talking about myself, that's my downfall, that's what I'm unable to do.
It's like I'm unreadable. On silent some days. Mentally I'm screaming out, to be noticed that I'm barely existing, and more often than not,I do get some form of attention, but if that attention isn't from the soul I want... It's futile.
You're managing it now? Give yourself some credit.
Because I don't know what it is about you, nor do I care to know. But I'm drawn to you, more than I've been to anything and anyone in my life before. I'm me, around you. I don't have to stop and think. I don't have to push the sensor button. I know it doesn't seem it, because I held back. But it's cos it frightens me, Less, tremendously, because for the first time in my whole existence, it makes me vulnerable. You leave me powerless!
But that's what draws me to you sweetheart. You're like a new and improved drug I've quickly gotten a new addiction to.
Scared yet? Are you gonna run yet??...
But why me? Look at me Matthew!!!!
... I said I wouldn't, and I won't...
I am! It's like looking at myself in the mirror, I see the same struggles. The same fears. We have the same mind set. Views. Your traits are my traits.
Maybe in some fucked up (but non creepy way) it's your innocence that makes me open up to you. Your purity. I could take you to the pit of my soul and know you somehow get it
You wanted in... This is it darling. But no promises, this could be magical... or a beautiful disaster.
Everyone leaves eventually, but stay with me a little while???... 😍❤️
