Honestly I'm just really mad at my parents. They expect complete obedience, they ignore all of my mental illnesses+ the syptoms that come with them, and they refuse to realize that their shitty parenting is part of the reason why me and my siblings are how we are.
Like, I spent most of my childhood being yelled at and pushed around at home, and then being bullied and shit at school. I would protect my siblings from my parents anger, I would cook sometimes and watch them most of the time. I am a better parent to them then my "real" parents are. Even now, with money not as tight and my parents gone most of the time, they still find ways to control everything, yell at us, threaten us with extreme violence, and act like we're only good for child labor.
Like, they spent most of mine and my siblings most important developmental years yelling at us, physically abusing us, threatening us with adoption and neglect and even death or severe injury, and then they wonder why we're all so angry and violent all the time. And they don't take responsibility when someone points out that the way they raise us does, actually, have an affect on us and our personality, but when we do something good, it's all them.
We also have like... no privacy at all? I don't even have a door for my bedroom, my dad watches who I text and when and what sites I check on my phone, I think the only thing they don't touch is my journals. But honestly, it always feels like I'm walking on eggshells, especially when they're already mad.
And adding on to the no privacy thing, they also ignore my boundaries all the time, like if I don't want to be hugged or touched that's too bad bcus I'm getting a hug and they don't care how much it makes me want to die. Or like, I don't want them talking about something because it messes with my stupid brain or like, causes flashbacks or something and they're just like... whatever about it.
In conclusion, my parents can get fucked.
