I Understand Baby

I can't

Hey you liked the cliffhanger I left you on? Anyways let's get started

Morgan's POV

I came back from the bathroom and Spencer wasn't in the bed where I left him. I started to panic looking around the hotel. "SPENCER WHERE ARE YOU ". I got no answer. I went back to our room and called JJ
"Hello JJ yeah Spencer is gone I went to the bathroom and when I came out he was gone like he vanished sombody took him and I think I know who."
"WHAT Spencer is gone mabey he went on midnight walk you know him." She moaned groggily.
"No he didn't go because of he did he would have taken his phone. Plus it's 3 not midnight." I said while frantically getting dressed
"Okay, okay I get it call hotch and we will meet you in the lobby okay?" She said as she shuffled around the room.
I hung up the phone and put on my shoes.
"Hotch Spencer is gone and he is nowhere to be found" I slightly sobbed into the phone
"Derek do you know what time it is?"he asked arrogantly
"Yes I do it's 3:15 am but did you hear me SPENCER REID IS MISSING!
"Okay, okay Morgan we will find him, meet us in the lobby" he said now alerted.

I jogged down the stairs, and when I got to the lobby area I saw JJ and Emily waiting on us.
"Morgan." JJ whispered
"I...heard noises but I-"
" Derek this is not your fault and I will not let you think that, Spencer knows that he wouldn't want you thinking that this was your fault he would want you finding him correct?" She asked cutting me off.
"Your right, when I get my hands on this son of a bitch I'm gonna oooooo."
I mumbled as a bitter tear rolled down my cheek.
I sat down in a chair waiting for Rossi and hotch come down stairs. My thoughts ran wild with questions, wonderings and regret.

I hope he is okay, he is strong he will be okay, but he will never forget this day or any days for that matter. This means im gonna drove alone. This is all my fault if I had not ignored the sounds he would be in my arms, I would be able to kiss his sweet innocent lips.
"Derek you okay?" Rossi asked rushing over.
" am I okay? DO I LOOK OKAY ROSSI MY PARTNER IS MISSING AND I CAN'T GET THESE DEPRESSING THOUGHTS OUT MY HEAD, MABEY HE'S DEAD MABEY HE BEING RAPED WE DON'T KNOW FOR SURE AND YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY TO ASK ME IF I'M OKAY." I yelled at Rossi walking out the hotel.
I sat on the bench and cried my baby is missing and I can't even assure myself that we're gonna find him. What is the point of living if he isn't here if he can't be here in my arms.
"Morgan" JJ wisphered walking over to me.
"I know your angry believe me we are too, but that outburst was uncalled for Rossi was asking you a simple question ."
"I-I'm Sorry it's just....just" I sobbed
"It's what morgan"
" my life was just was getting happier with and now he is missing, JJ what am I supposed to do with that he is my everything what am I supposed to do without him" she rubbed my back as I cried on her shoulder.
"I know, I know let's go
Find this bastard." She said while getting up.

I walked into the lobby where Emily, Hotch and Rossi was waiting anxiously.
"Hey Rossi I'm sorry for that outburst I'm just anxious and angry I shouldn't have tooken out on you." Sniffled softly.
He turned around and gave me a reassuring look
"It's fine I get it, now let's find this son of a bitch
We walked outside nd got into 2 cars me and JJ and Emily. Hotch and Rossi in another car.
I opened the drivers door but JJ stopped me " no your not driving I don't trust you, your not gonna drive us off a bridge I have a family."
"Wha-"
" No agruging get in the passenger seat"

We were driving to the station when I got a call from the police I had ordered to find Spencer's ex

" Yo Derek we can't find Peter monson that you wanted us to arrest" the officer said

I was already really upset about Spencer's kidnapping now some bum officers can't even find his ex
" I DONT CARE HOW LONG IT TAKES YOU FIND HIM OR I WILL HAVE YOU FIRED ON THE SPOT" I yelled as the tears streamed down my face.
" Don't worry D I will make sure he found by the time you come back into town."