I Understand Baby

Memories

Let's geeeetttt itttt!!!!

Spencer POV

After he was finished with me he turned off the camera and left. The blood dripped from my writs on to the sheet dipriven bed, the pain was beyond bearable it took me back to when Peter would punch me in the stomach untill I threw up because he said I was too fat, or the time he almost killed me in the bathroom by putting my head in a full bathtub full of water. Tears fell thinking about Derek, I know he and everyone are looking for me. Mabey he doesn't love me mabey he only had sex with me just to do it. No he wouldn't just do that but I don't know if he LOVES me. I closed my eyes trying to focus on my breathing.

Five minutes later I heard quiet footsteps coming down the stairs. I sat up and saw Andrew with gauses and medical tape. "He did this to you?" He asked sitting on the bed. I nodded " give me your arm" he said him holding his hand out. I slowly gave him my arm. " I would let you go.....but he would kill Ryan if I did anything like this." I nodded telling him I understood. "do you happen to know where we are." I asked trying to get somewhere so the next time the camera gets turned on I can signal the team or something. "yeah an abandoned house on 222 Landon street." as he finished wrapping my arm I started hearing cussing from up stairs. "Andrew come get this fucking baby" Carl shouted from upstairs.

"I'm sorry I have to go"
I nodded. As he walked upstairs I began thinking how I was gonna to tell them where I am.
I laid down to try and sleep and think about something else. "no matter what the people say I'm gonna love you anyway you are my life I cant let go, even if we fuss or fight try till we get it right you are my life, I can't let go." I said lowly. My mother sang this to me when I couldn't sleep, or when we would fight about her treatment. I wanted her right now I need her to tell me that I'm worth something or someone. Tears fell thinking about my mother and how she made me feel like the most important child even when she was having her bad days.
I closed my eyes falling asleep.

*few hours later*

MORGANS POV

it was about 12 o clock in the morning, the team and I were still trying to locate the Mathews and most importantly my best friend, teamate and hopefully my boyfriend. I was going through Carl's case files when I got a phone call from Garcia

Morgan: hello mama is there any good news?

Garcia: no..... Not really open your computer again.

Morgan: this is unreal, what's happening now!!! He better not be hurting him or I swear on my mother Carl is gonna die.

Garcia: don't freak out just yet....just watch the live video and I'll be watching it with you I hope nothing bad happens

Morgan: I know, I hope so too thank you baby girl.

Garcia: no problem my king.

We hung up the phone and I opened my computer. " guys come in here, we have another live video." I say as they walk in.
The video starts and Spencer is curled up in a small ball like a cat sleeping, Carl walks into the room looking a little sad or remorseful. He sits on the bed next to Spencer's head and stokes his hair, moments later Spencer woke and jumped seeing Carl next to his head. "w-what are you doing." he asked scared. " nothing.... I just need you" Carl said caressing his cheek. " what do you need from me?" he asked. " I need the blessing of your body." he said touching Spencer's inner thigh. Spencer scoots away. "I'm not gonna hurt you.....I just need you....... Please"
Carl says. Spencer's looked changed from scared to upset and sad. " you have a wonderful husband and a beautiful son, plus I'm on yours to have." Carl started to get mad and annoyed. " you are mine and your gonna do what the hell I say to do!" he screamed as he got on top of spencer. Spencer locked his knees together. "stop, stop, please I didn't mean it please don't do this please!!!" Spencer cried trying to fight him off from on top of him. I was crying on inside I couldn't let that much emotion be portrayed, but honestly I wanted to jump through the screen kill Carl and save the love of my life. When I Looked at the screen again Carl was still fighting with Spencer for entrance. "you ain't shit so why are you acting like you have everything going for you, like your body is precious. I tried to be nice earlier but you just can't give me what I want huh" Carl snarled while pinning Spencer's hands above his head, it made me scared, I pinned his hands above his head two nights before but he enjoyed that night. Tears spilled from Spencer's eyes same time as mine. Carl spread Spencer's legs, Spencer closed his eyes as cried while Carl entered him. I looked over at Rossi and Hotch who looked disgusted by Carl's behavior. Turned my head to see Emily and JJ looking sad, on the verge of crying. Fuck this Im'a cry cause this makes me more angry than sad or upset like how are you gonna take somebody who obviously is not yours to have and make them give you what you want. I could see the pain in Spencer's face the physical and emotional pain. And the shit that pisses me off the most is that he had the audacity to make small talk with my baby.

Carl: *grunt* did you have any pets growing up

Spencer: I had a pet dog named Landon *soft sob*

Carl: oh *grunt* how long did he live

Spencer: *softly crying* h-he lived until he was 222

I was genuinely confused Spencer never had pets growing up and dogs no matter what breed don't live 45 let alone 222. Mabey he's trying to tell us something. "guys I think he's trying to tell us something. He never had pets growing up and we know for a fact that dogs don't live for more that 30 years." I say never taking my eyes off the screen. " Mabey your right but what could that mean." hotch says. I listen back into the screen to hear Spencer crying from the pain.

Spencer: I'm sorry...... I'm sorry for breaking, I'm sorry I wasn't strong, I'm sorry for being weak. I'm sorry I promise I'll do better if you find me I'm sorry!!
*crying*

Carl: what are you talking about.

Why he is apologizing.....wait!

"guys he apologizing to us, he knows we're watching." I said.
"he's apologizing for breaking for letting Carl get what he wants he saying if we find him he'll be stronger." Emily says
"he's giving up" I whisper while tears well in my eyes. Carl leaves the room while Spencer curls into a ball and cries the same line over and over again

"I'm sorry"

The video shuts off and everyone is either infuriated, crying or ready to kill, me personally I'm all three. I wish I knew what he was trying to tell us about.

SPENCER'S POV

I hope they got what I was trying to tell them, they should especially if they have common sense. I cry I hope they find me I don't want to give up but it's been 2 days. I fall asleep with Derek on my mind.