Moon and Stars

Chapter 13

Andalus's POV

"I will think about it mother." I told my mother for the 10th time after asking me the same question the whole day. "Please don't forget." my mother would say, begging me every time to think about that subject.

As I told you before, I am not really sure if I should accept this proposal or not. According to the fact that I have cancer, it is stopping me from moving forward, and thinking about it. But sometimes I ask myself if his mother told him that I have cancer or not.

Which it seems to be weird if he knows this fact about me and still wants to marry me.

"Rayan don't forget to buy some strawberries" my mother said to Rayan as soon as he went downstairs "I am going to bake some delicious tarts" my mother continued teasing him.

"Okay mother I won't forget. Yalla AlSalam Alaikum." my brother said while opening the house's door to go to the mousque to pray Asr.

I went to Rayan's bedroom to pick up his dirty clothes after my mother told me, I picked them and put them in the basket as fast as I could so I can pray Asr on time. Not only I picked his clothes but also I removed the dust from his desk which took me forever, and wasted my time.

I took his laptop from the desk and put it on his bed so I can complete removing the dust, I didn't realize that his Facebook account was open till I left his bedroom ... But I turned back and stared at his laptop and then because curiosity killed me ... Yeah you knew it!

I sat on his bed and started scrolling through his Facebook wall and then I realized that he was talking to Hilal. I went through the messages and started reading them while my heart beat so fast and a fever started to spread, from my heart down to my legs.

Hilal told my brother that he'll come to San Francisco next week because he can't wait to meet someone and my brother asked him about that person but he kept on telling him that he'll know later. Also my brother begged him to attend MSA's event the week after and this blew up my mind.

What on earth my brother is doing? I can't read my speech in front of Hilal. Wait I didn't write it yet but even though I am still going to write it. God I am nervous. It is not only Hilal but there are lots of boys out there that will listen to lots of speeches, poems, stories, and much more. It is not like I am going to read a long speech, well I hope it is going to be pretty short ... I really do hope so.

I opened Hilal's profile like an idiot and started checking his pictures and statues. I opened a picture of him, he was with three boys and they were holding the Palestinian flag and he wrote down a short article that was talking about Palestine and then I stared at his picture with a frown and read some comments which were from both boys and girls. After that there was a status from a girl called Youssra and that girl wrote ' Hey I missed you xx ' and all he did was liking her status.

Anyways this drove me crazy ... and my heart badly started racing. I checked the time on my brother's laptop and realized he'd be home anytime. I stood up and walked out his room as fast as I could then put the basket near his bedroom's door and went to pray Asr.

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I walked down to the city's park after praying Maghreb and after baking strawberry tarts with my mother. I took a pen and a notebook with me to write the speech. To be honest I couldn't write because my mind was busy thinking. It was thinking about that girl and those ' xx ' she wrote in that status. I was thinking if she might be in love or something or if Hilal is in love with her. But if he was in love then why would he still want to marry me?

"In the name of Allah the most gracious, the most merciful" I wrote on the top of the notebook and then someone tapped me on the back of my head. I looked up and it was my brother Rayan.