"I was just curious how it feels to be...youngkyun for a day.."
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Hey~~
This is kang chanhee who tells the story!!
You may not be so suprised 'cause you already know me^-^✌
I'm one of the members of SF9 band.
We made our debut last year.
I'm not gonna explain about my group so much.I'm here to say something else.
You know.except being a rapper I'm in charge of cutie of the group.
I didn't need to be cute.
All I wanted was charisma.
Like youngbin hyung.youngbin hyung was cute and at the same time had his special charisma.
But all everyone could see into me was cuteness and I hated it.
I hated how everyone were looking me as a kid and expect me to be cute all the time.
Taeyang hyung was cute and sexy at the same time too although he was in maknae line.
Even youngkyun..
It was unacceptable.
I didn't mind about this problem for a long me but my nervous exploded when All the member had to decide what to eat.they even asked youngkyun but not me!!
There I was.
I wished I were youngkyun.
Even if it's a day.
It was wrong at first,wasn't it?
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I openned my eyes slowly.
I would feel my body froze every morning but now..
My nody was so warm..
I smiled a bit and kept my fingers locked around an unknown thing which I was hugging.
Maybe I had to just see what I was hugging?
I looked up to see something weird.
Weird as much as possible.
I saw my own..face..
I pushed the unknown thing back and sat on my bed paniced.
"What is going-"
My lips started moving..the unknown thing was me!!
I almost cried but when I saw my face in the mirror Of my room I understood..
It was kind of impposible.
It wasn't me!!it was youngkyun's face!!
I freaked out.
Everytime I wished something it didn't achieve.
This time I whished someting impossible and it achieved??
Then youngkyun was me and I was him??
Hilarious..
Youngkyun-me myself- started talking but cut when both of us saw taeyang who was taking selfies with us.
When he saw us noticing him he stopped taking selfies and hid his phone behind him.
"What are you doing??"youngkyun asked still not knowing we had changed.
"Nothing important.just wanted to tease you wth these."taeyang smirked devily and showed us some of them.
Well..
Itt was worse than what I thouht.
We were cuddlig each other the whole day and even taeyang took photos of us and believe me I didn't want anything more from god:')
"He got crazy this early."youngkyun shook his head and stood up from where I pushed him.
Be careful youngkyun..if you know we've changed you might get heart attack:)
"Get ready.everyone left the dorm and we gotta leave now.we'll be late."taeyang informed abd left my room.
By the way what's youngkyun doing in my room?:|
"Why am I in your room kang chan-"
He finally looked at me but cut when he saw his own face in front of him.
I Know right?it feels aweful😶
His face was like he couldn't believe.
He even got closer and touched his own face.
"Why..am I..in front of myself?"he asked.
I didn't answer.
What should I answer?
Suddenly he stepped back and ran his fingers through his hair.
"I'm going crazy.I'm still dreaming.."he said scared.
You wish it were!
"Then.."I started speaking and gained his attention.
"Can I be you for a day?"I smirked and freaked him out.
I know when I was smirking in that situation it would be scary but I was really excited.
I left the room without caring about him.
I could make songs with juho hyung.
I could not dance for a day!!
I smiled as I entered youngkyun's room to get ready.
At least I had to stay handsome!
I used all his face creams and make up stuff after that.
I laughed at myself.poor youngkyunnie..
He didn't know what I was doing in his room!!
But it was his body after all!
I went out after getting ready and saw taeyang was waiting for me.
I stood beside him and waited for youngkyun.
He was late.don't tell me he did something weird with my body?!
I wanted to go back in the house but youngkyun came out.
Taeyang and I were shocked seeing my body!!
How youngkyun changed my style!!
I wanted to curse him so bad..
I don't know how to describe it since it was a luxurios style but well..still..
"What's going on?wanna go to club?"taeyang stepped closer to youngkyun-me!-
I was behind taeyang and was shaking my hands like youngkyun was going to be dead.
Youngkyun just smirked at me with my own lips and pushed his-my- bangs back and made me mad for real.
How did he dare..
Wanna play youngkyun?
You chose it yourself.
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'I'm gonna kill him..I really want to kill him now!!'
I was so stressed 'cause I couldn't youngkyun's body.
My body was softer and I knew why.
I've practiced more than youngkyun after all.
"Stop."
When youngbin hyung stopped us for the third time I pissed off but didn't say anything.
Youngkyun was so comfortable with my body.I could read it in his eyes!!
"Don't you wanna do it correctly kim youngkyun?"youngbin hyung asked.
"I'm Sorry."I hummed and bit my-youngkyun's-lips from embarrassment.
"I don't warn anymore.you know what happens next time."youngbin said his last words coldly and went to his position.
Now I know.I know why everytime in our dance youngkyun was scolded.
Maybe I was wrong..being youngkyun wasn't that easy..
I wasn't trying to dance better.I was just trying to hide my mistakes.
Compare to my own body I was trying so hard when I was in youngkyun's body.
Mistakes and more mistakes..
This time as youngbin said he didn't warn this time and just held my arm and just pushed me away to sit in the corner of the room.
It kind of broke me.
It was first time that I got punished because of not dancing well.
Now I could feel like how youngkyun felt all this time.
Youngkyun-ah..
I sat in the corner of the room watching them dance.
I was sad.it was hard to keep myself tough that's why ny tears fell on my cheeks.
But no one noticed 'cause I wiped them fast.
I didn't try hard to reach here..
"YAAAH!!seokwoo!!faster!"
"Oh my..YOO TAEYANG!!why are you cleaning the floor when you laugh??"
"Where should I drown myself from you??"
Youngbin hyung was so mad and I could feel it too.
Being leader was hard for him.
I wasn't upset with him but actually I was.
He left the members and sat beside me while grabbing his knees in his stomach and putting his forehead on his knees.
I stared at taeyang who was laughing all the time..he was serious when he was practicing after all.
I stopped when I saw youngkyun was having fun,playing with seokwoo hyung with my body!!
At least it was good that seokwoo hyung wouldn't bother me anymore.
You know how much I hate skinship like taeyang hyung.kkk..
By the way.
I put my hand on youngbin hyung's shoulder to see if he was ok.
"You tell me.what should I do?"he finally looked at me.
I could see his red eyes.still he was wiping his tears falling from his eyes.
Before I could do anything zuho jumped on youngbin hyung.
Huh..he noticed so soon..
After him jaeyoon did and after tat inseong and seokwoo.taeyang jumped too 'cause he liked youngbin hyung.
I jumped on taeyang hyung and made others shout.
It was fun so..
And it was for then,before youngkyun jump on me and hugging me from behind.
Beside of him-my own body- being heavy a bit,I could feel my heartbeats.
Isn't it weird?
My heart never beats like this..
'Cause honestly it's not my heart:|
Sanghyuk hyung jumped on youngkyun and then Ifelt how others felt:')
I was smashing there!
Before I smash completely youngkyun and sanghyuk hyung got up and I could take a break after that.
Poor youngbin hyung..
"Don't ever cry again hyung!!"jaeyoon said seriously and made youngbin laugh.
The rest of the practice was good and of course youngbin hyung brought me back.
"I don't blame you 'cause I'm afraid to hurt your feelings but youngkyun-ah..it's not a park!we're in a war.we should fight rather than enjoy."
After hearing those words from youngbin hyung I wanted to cry.
He was right.
What did I think with myself?
Why did I want to be youngkyun when I already had everything?
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I got ready and pulled my mask on my nose and mouth and after putting my hands in my pockets I left the company.
I was playing music in my headphone while walking to the dorm.
Everything was good before someone back hugged me.
I stopped walking and stared at in front of me.
The person behind me pulled out one of my headphones and start humming near my ear.
"I didn't allow you to cry with my eyes."
Ah..youngkyun.
"I hate you."I whispered but loud enough for him to hear.
I noticed he heard but didn't say anything.
"Why didn't you say anything?"
Why didn't you ask me to help you when you were suffering?
You could tell me if you were alone.
You
You just had to ask me to stay by your side..
"What's the use?"he stepped back and let go of me.
We started walking together this time.
Just as we did when we were trainees.
We were quiet since had no subject to talk about.
I was thinking.maybe tomorrow I would be in my own body so I had to do something before I leave his body.
It seems a little weird!
"Youngkyun-ah."I stopped walking and made him stop with me.
"Lets walk until midnight."I said seriously.
"Well,if you see well it's already midnight."he said while looking at me weirdly.
I looked at the watch which was on my wrist.
"It's not 12AM yet."I said.
I could feel he was hesitant so I used my special aegyo.
"Just for an hour!"I said while pouting cutely.
I couldn't do any aegyo more since none of them effected on youngkyun.
"Fine."he nodded but I know it was on force!--__+
I smiled and we started to walk again.
I wanted to enjoy although it was just an hour.
"Why did you want to be me?"
After 15 minutes youngkyun broke the silence and asked.
"Being maknae is boring."I answered while jumping in the water poles which were on my way.
"You know I'm in maknae line too,right?"he breathed out ot caring about me wettting his own shoes.
"Being you isn't fun Neither."
He didn't say anything and continued his way in the dark street.
It was weird but so suddenly a thought came to my head.
I wanted to keep him..
I'm not like those types who say these romantic things but that moment I was full of these feelings.
I kept jumping in the water poles even when we arrived at the dorm.
I didn't want to go in so I stood there playing with my feet.
"You're like a kid."youngkyun shook his head with pity.
"What's with that?"i asked and made him keep quiet.
"I mean..what with being like a kid?it's not like I wanna do something big that I need to be an adult.being an adult wants dare."I pouted and leanted to the wall of the apartment.
"You're so complicated."youngkyun said while leaning beside me.
We stared at the quiet place which we were in.
"It's 11:50."youngkyun mentioned after not so long time.
I nodded and we went in the building.
Well..at least I took care of his body well!
A peaceful day with youngkyun's body.
I confess that I think it seems weird if I say with youngkyun's body.
Lets just keep it beween us youngkyun-ah.Okay?
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I openned my eyes when I heard someone was calling my name.
"Yah kang chanhee!!"
I turned my head slowly to see youngkyun wo was standing near the door.
We switched again.that's good..
"Wanna sleep all day?we gotta go to the practice roo.everyone already left."he said and made me close my eyes again.
"Why didn't you go so?"I asked not even bothering to open my eyes again.
"I-I.."he stuttered.
I don't know why but I found it a bit cute.
Someone save me please.
I stood up and yawned.
"Get ready soon."he said and left fast.
Don't be shy youngkyun-ah~~
I changed my clothes and went out.
As soon as I passed youngkyun before I wait for him to lock the door I stopped beside him.
"You'll be trained by me from now on."i said seriously and made him laugh.
"You finally lost your mind?"he asked while trying to hold his laughter back.
"I'm not and I don't care if you're suffering from me or not 'cause.."I stopped and watched his smiled disappeared slowly.
"I'm not gonna let your hands go."I hummed and turned my head although his face was so funny that time.
"But You did."
I stopped again when he said that.
His voice was changing and I totally didn't want to know that he was crying.
It was unbearable.
"Yeah.I did before.I didn't know how you've been feeling all these time."I turned around to see his wet eyes.
I didn't want to see..
I was scared to see his teary eyes..
I locked my hands around his neck and pulled myself upper to hug him and put my chin on his shoulder.
I didn't want to see how his shoulders were shaking..
I wiped my own tears which were falling on my cheeks after seeing him crying.
"You're like kids more than I am."I laughed between crying.
He didn't say anything so I kept quiet too before say the last thing.
"I'm not gonna let you go ever again yougkyun hyung."
He's important to me..he always was.
And no one lets go of what he loves.
