"Don't be a cop if you don't have enough power to protect who's precious in your life."
But I never took it serious.
That's why I was burning inside.
I had to save my hyung.
I didn't care about what my boss was saying.
I was driving as fast as I could.
My dad was also a cop.
he was the bravest person I knew.I always thought I wanted to be like him because he was strong.
he could protect his family.
I was wrong.
I lost my mom when my dad and I were out to get something for dinner.
the thiefs attacked our home and killed my mom.
yeah..she was killed just because my dad had done his duty.
it hurt.
I was changed into a depressed and a quiet boy after my dad was murdered in one of his missions too.
I finished college and entered police station soon.
I saw my hyung there.A total cutie with a wide smile was standing there helping an old woman to apply the missing form.
He was the one who cared about my life.
I never asked him but he did care without having any expectation from me.
he told me that I could rest my head on his shoulder whenever I was too tired of being alive.
He told me to ask him the reason of being happiness whenever I was hopeless.
I had never seen any person like him.
I fell in love with him without I know.
I know he was a guy and many people might avoid falling in love with the same sex as themeselves but I admitted my feelings.
I wanted to tell him that I loved him but that night.. he was running after a thief to get back a woman's bag.
He was doing dangerous works although he wasn't even a cop!
I asked him not to do that anymore because it was my duty.
I couldn't let him live alone so I asked him to live with me.
I wanted to keep him safe and I thought it was the safest way to keep him in my house.
I was just scared..I was scared to lose him too..
I had many enemies so I just wanted to keep him close to me.
"please youngbin..please.."
I had no one but him.
I didn't know what I could do without him.
I wanted to see him laugh when I was hitting him because I didn't want to wake up.
I wanted to hold his small body in my embrace and tell him that he was ugly.
I never told him how cuddly he was.
he was the only one who would fit between my legs well.
I could sit him there and give him medicine when he was sick and didn't want to eat anything.
I missed the days when I was off work and he was sleeping on my chest while I was playing games.
I missed to hear him laugh until he fall on the floor and carry him to our bed after that.
I missed all those moments and yet.. I never told him that I loved him..
I opened the door fast and entered while holding my gun up.
I had to save him.I couldn't let my youngbin die.
no one was there..
just the poisonous gas remote control was there.
I held him in my hand.
I told youngbin to press it whenever he was in danger.
my anxiousness increased as I saw that.
I entered kitchen and saw.. the thief.
I really didn't expect it but he was there!!
maybe dead or maybe alive..I didn't care!
where was youngbin?
I didn't know what had happened to youngbin yet.
I entered our room as fast as I could and looked around.
where was he?
I opened the door of the closet and saw him.
I saw he was shivering from fear there.
I knelt in front of him weakly.
he had on his pajamas with bears on it from the morning until then..
"Hyung.."
I wanted to cry..I wanted to hit him for making me worry but I couldn't.
I couldn't see those tears in his eyes..
"sanghyuk-ah!!"
He hugged me while he was sobbing.
my tears wet my cheeks too.it was sad how he was having his arms around my neck and was stuck to me with fear.
"I thought..I thought I was going to die..He wanted..to kill me..sanghyuk-ah I was scared.."
he cried loudly and made me pat his back.
"I'm sorry for not being here sooner and Thank you for being strong hyung.."
I kissed his head and then his forehead.
"I love you youngbin hyung..I'm sorry for not protecting you.."
He was whispering near his ear that he loved him.
youngbin had to know even if it was late.
"I love you too.."
sanghyuk knew better.youngbin was always a kid for him.
but he had grew up well..He had done what sanghyuk told him to..
"I'll be stronger..trust me hyung..I'll never let you be in danger ever again."
he held youngbin tight.
he was in his embrace as he had expected.
sanghyuk was thankful when youngbin said something that he had never said before.
"I believe in you."
