Secret code 9:
"Taeyang-ah.Taeyang-ah.think a little more deeply about it."
"Ok ok."
Taeyang throws the mussel anyway and makes the situation worse.
He doesn't really know what's rolling in seokwoo's head right?
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[ROWOON'S POV]:
I'm getting off from the van.
My lips still burns from the spicy food I ate a few minutes ago.
No doubt when I found taeyang I would kill him.
Lets just find that cute sunshine and choke him alright?
I turn my speed up and walk to his shared room with youngkyun.
There's no way that youngkyun comes back home when he's having fun with chanhee right?
I open the door and look at my sunshine who's combing his hair while humming his favorite song.
I curl my arms around his shoulders and get closer to his ear.
"Found you sunshine."
I can feel that he's scared but acts like nothing happened.
"Oh hyung.you found me!was I lost?"he laughed but his gesture changed to his usual unemotional one.
Yeah..he doesn't know what I'm angry from.
I hold his wrist and push him back on his bed.
"I thought you were escaping,weren't you?"
I smirk and pin his wrists to the bed.
Maybe I'm like our dance instructor to him in this situation 'cause I can see fear in his eyes.
He wouldn't freak out like this when we're together.
He exactly know what's gonna happen to him.
"You know I don't like to play with you.why don't you just listen to what I say,taeng?"I ask.
I didn't want to do anything to him but who's gonna let him go when he's scared,shivering from fear and panting..
You imagine it yourself.would you let go of him?
Oh and I said taeng earlier right?
This is the nickname that I've chosen to call him.
Suddenly His voice makes me step out of my thoughts.
"I-I'm sorry!!I-"
"I warned you before too,didn't I?"I ask and lean closer and leave some purple mark on his neck and jawbone.
I guess it hurts so much 'cause he's moving and gasps.
"H-Hyung..it...hur-"
I stop when he doesn't continue.
What's happening?
I go back and let go of his wrists and put my hands on his bed close to his body.
His tears..fall down..
My taeyang..is crying..
I touch his wet cheek with my thumb like I can't believe that I'm not dreaming.
My heart hurts.
Seeing him like this makes me feel like I'm the worst guy in the world for making him cry.
"Taeng?"I hum his name.
"Leave."
I shook my head as I hear him asks me to leave.
He can't do this.
"I'm not going anywhere tae.I'm.."
I kiss his wet eyes.
The boy who laughs in my embrace everyday and night...now is crying under me.
It's not gonna be like this.
"I'm sorry."I whisper while kissing his tears.
He doesn't say anything.
He just handle everything inside..
"I'm Sorry for being like this."I cuddle him and start to pet his blond hair.
He can't reject me.he can't avoid me.
he knows that I can't live without him.
"I'm..sorry too..hyung.."he says quietly and locks his hands together around my stomach.
"You don't need to be."
You don't need to apologize my sunshine.
I smile and hold his chin and make him look at me.
Without saying anything I lean forward and kiss his forehead,nose and lips.
He smiles between our kiss and accompanies me in the kiss.
As I always say..
He'll be my sunshine forever..🌞
But a Question comes forward.
❝Will I someday be able to live without him? ❞
❛No. ❜
