"Useless!!how can a human be useless like you?!I can't believe it!!"
That was the last thing he said until I decide to ruin his life.
I was going to show him the real image of the devil.
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Inseong was my cousin.
he was someone who I really hated and gladly he had the same feelings about me.
we hated each other since we were 13 and it meant we couldn't handle seeing each other about 6 years.
I was there to see how he fell in love with a girl in our high school and well..
I planned something terrible.
I decided to ruin his love life.
he didn't do something bad to me but I had to do it.
I wanted to hear him cry and break in front of me.
I wanted him to hate me more and more until he burns.
I didn't know why I hated him that much.
maybe because he knew everything about my life and once told a bad part about it to my classmates.
there he was.
he had a box that I knew the ring was in that.
he wanted to ask his girlfriend to marry him and I..
well,me?
I had an important role. I had to stop it.
when I came to myself I saw Inseong knelt on the floor in front of her.
huh..that wasn't going to happen.
I pushed other students away and walked toward him.
I held him by his collar and made him stand up.
before he can say anything I kissed him.
I guess I had to be sorry..
it wasn't his fault that I was a jerk.
he wasn't the one who was going to help me when I was dying from pain.
he was a little taller than me but it was okay.
our kiss didn't last because my neck hurt.I didn't want to kiss him when I was shorter.
"Sorry not sorry."I sang and turned around and left him shocked.
I couldn't care about him or anyone who was there.
I thought for a moment.was it really a good decision to kiss my cousin?
I could kiss his girlfriend!!
wah..I was an idiot!!
I didn't go home because I didn't want to get hit again.
I sat on my motorcycle and rode to wherever it took me.
I didn't how long I was riding until I noticed some guys were following me.
who were they?
[Inseong's pov]:
I drank from my strawberry milk.
I still could feel his lips on my lips.I hated to think about that so I drank again.
taeyang..that bastard loved strawberry milk too.
why was I even drinking what I hated?!
I stopd up and walked toward my car.
I was going to kill him after I found him. I had no doubt on that.
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[Taeyang's pov]:
I had to run away but when one of them hit his motorcycle to mine I fell on the floor.
I hardly could move my body. I was stuck under my motorcycle.
I was in pain but I didn't think they could understand how I felt.
he took off his hat and made me stare at him shocked.
he was one of my classmates.
"wah!how does it feel like,taeyang-ah?"he asked while smirking.
I took of my hat as well and tried not to back off.
I didn't want to look weak.
"do you know you'll be dead if anyone knows about it?"I asked and when he head what I said he started laughing.
he sat on his knees and took out his knife.
I still tried not to show how nervous I was even when his knife was on my cheek.
"no one's gonna know."
he was right.he had his friends with him and even if I tried to escape,I couldn't go through them.
"then would you mind to tell me why you're doing this?"I smiled.
I was trying to put off my death.
"everyone hates you.do you need any reason?"he smirked again.
I knew that!unlike inseong I was so popular that much that everyone wanted to murdur me.
of course I wasn't blaming them.
no one liked me because of my behavior.
I always bothered teachers abd students.
I thought that I wasn't a bully but actually I was.
when I felt his knife on my neck I closed my eyes fast.
I knew that was going to happen someday.
it didn't matter if my classmates were doing it or my dad.
when his knife fell on the floor I opened my eyes.
I stared at inseong who kicked him in his stomach and started fighting with other guys.
maybe he wanted to kill me himself.
I thought about that but..he never defended me.
but he was there now.he wasn't looking at me to see if I was dead or alive.
everyone knew how much we hated each other.
but who could believe that he was there not to let those guys kill me?
I felt weak.my eyes went dark slowly and I lost my consiousness.
the next thing I felt was a pair of hands.
I opened my eyes and looked at inseong,who was trying to pull me out from under of my motorcycle.
he helped me to stand up and shook his head.
"look what you did with your motorcycle,you jerk."
I hardly could stand on my feet.I wanted to tell him to leave me but I didn't open my mouth.
"I had to kill you tonight but I'll do it tomorrow so you better be ready you asshole."
he pushed me back and turned around to walk toward his car.
everyone hated me and inseong was no exception.
he hated me more than anyone did.
because of the kiss he hated me more now.
he could at least help me take my motorcycle from the ground..
I tried to pull it up but failed easily.
I had to leave it there but I couldn't walk home because my feet hurt and it was killing me.
"you can't even do something simple."
inseong groaned and pushed me away to pull it up himself.
he was back..to help me..
I kept quiet although I really wanted to ask him why he was helping me.
didn't he hate me?
he had to just leave me there.wasn't that what enemies did?
tears fell on my cheeks before I notice.
I had to wipe them before inseong sees but..
I couldn't.
more tears fell and I couldn't stop them.
"I did nothing to them!!"
there was no one in the street and I was sure inseong wasn't going to care if I yelled.
"is it the time to cry?"inseong held my wrists and pulled them away from my teary face.
"you hate me too!!why don't you just leave instead of pitying me??"I screamed.
All I ever did was because I felt lonely.
but I didn't think anyone understood that.
"how can I leave when you're crying like a stupid kid in the middle of the street??"he asked back.
why was he even pitying me?
"I don't need you!!just fuck off already-"
I couldn't continue while his lips were on mine.
I kissed it today..yeah I agree that I was an idiot for doing that but what was with him?
he was smart enough not to do that!
I stopped crying.
I could deny that kissing him comforted me.
huh..honestly I never thought kissing a boy would made me feel like that.
it took a moment until we fell apart but he was still too close.
I was sure if I spoke,our lips were going to touch.
"nothing would happen to you if you answered my kiss tho."
I bit my lower lip.
we always talked about how we liked to murder each other but now,he was asking me why I didn't answer his kiss.
I felt..happy somehow.
"I've been feeling lonely."
I knew it wasn't what he wanted to hear but I said it.
I didn't know what i was going to do if he didn't care.
"I try to be kind to you.of course if I could."
he held my wrist again and dragged me with himself.
I didn't need hom to be kind to me but I wanted to see how it felt to be loved by someone.
maybe it was going to be funnier because my enemy was going to do that.
