☽ 𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐑 𝐁𝐄𝐁É ! ☽

Sunrise||Im in love with you,sorry

Y/N- Alright, besides everything you already know, let's bring it back to where I became apart of Calpurnia.. everything was normal before. I went to school, I had normal friends, so, my mom bought me and my best friends tickets to the Calpurnia concert in New York. It was amazing. I wrote Finn a long paragraph dm thing. And plus I make him edits. That changed my life. I even met Iris Apatow during it. We became best friends too. So, right at the begging of the show, finn said he was going to give a "shoutout" to some one. I didn't pay attention because I thought he was going to talk abo one of his favorite musicians or some shit but no. He fucking said "I would like to give a shout-out  girl. She makes edits of me and the band and she even messaged me from the heart today... Y/N! Y/N please put your hand up" so he brought me into stage and I helped him sing and play guitar then after the show he asked if I wanted to go on tour. So I went. A couple days into the tour my mom texted me and said "I'm very pissed at you! You are the worst daughter ever!" So I ended up stopping the bus and I ran out. I was all field. I fell to the ground and let out loud cries. Finn brought me back inside and so I took a nap. So after that, it was our first actual show. The ending was, just, amazing. We sang "brothers loves travels salvation show" and he was the only one to sing the lyric "Take my hand in yours" so he grabbed my hand. We were standing right in front of the stage. He spun me around. Then kissed me. He made a speech telling me he loved me. Everyone was mad. I mean, you can't expect Finn to go the rest of his life without a girlfriend I mean, really! You know? Anyways, so, there was a video that got spread, of Finn and I kissing and his speech and whatever. So people were commenting, calling me a hoe and telling me to die. So Mille comments on one of them and told me to dm her. So she dm ed me and we started talking and became friends and whatever. So this was our second show. It was in my home town of Los angles. We were walking around and I ran into my dad. He was a bit of a jerk but I was a bigger jerk to him. He made me cry on the spot. So anyway, we went and set the show up. There were hate signs behind held up. I looked around and saw a little group of people I knew. There was, my mom, my dad, Kieryn, Iris, and even Jack Grazer. He was there for Kieryn. I guess they love each other 😂. But anyway. Um, I walked up to all of them after the show. I hugged my friends but not my mom or dad. My mom started calling me a bitch and other names and punched me in the shoulder even. I could tell she was drunk. But, she's never drank before. So the whole thing threw me off. She was super rude. My dad tried calming me down. But I ran off. I followed everyone back to the bus. So right in front of the bus there were this line of fans. There were shouting "Kys slut" so I ran onto the bus. No one was on yet. I went into the bathroom. I texted Millie "goodbye, it was nice knowing you" so I tried choking myself out. I even cut my wrists deeply. Finn busted the door Down and stopped me. But I had already passed out. The last thing I heard was Finns yelling and Ayla's loud cries. Ayla dropped to her knees and came by Finn, trying to help me too. So the next morning, I woke up. I stared to freak out noticing the wrap on my wrists. Finn calmed me down. He canceled the show which made me a little upset so I tried fighting it. finn yelled at me which scared me. So after that happened, my dad somehow got my number and told me my mom was in the hospital and that he would explain everything later. So me and Finn went. And there my mom was. All hooked up to the hospital machines. My dad told me it was from alcohol poisoning. She was forced to drink it. And the text I got from here was from one of her friends. So Finn and I sat in the room for a long time. I even fell asleep. But, I woke up from beeping. It was coming from the flag line machine. I tried standing up but Finn grabbed my arms. I held my hand over my mouth. The hand with the ring. The ring my mom gave me when I was 5, promising she would love me no matter what. I sat back down. I heard the machine go flat. I ran over to my mom and grabbed her hand. She was losing her life. I held her hand which made mine shake like hers. I said no to myself many times, she started to whisper sing our favorite song. That's when she stopped. She was gone. I walked back over to Finn and screamed into his shoulder. The door opened and there was iris and her mom Leslie. She showed me the adoption papers. I ran up to the and hugged them. So after that we went to our room. So the next show was the 4th out of the 6th. I was scared of what people still thought of me. We got called into stage and I saw girls holding up supportive signs... for me. I smiled and it was another great show. So since our next show was in 3 days, we decided to go to Disney land in Florida. We rode the log chute first then a whole bunch of other cool rides. It was almost midnight. Me and Finn got on one of those slow sight seeing rides. We kissed right at the 12:00 fireworks which was amazing. So the day of the next show, finn told me he had a surprise. He told me I got to meet all of you guys. So we did the show then of coarse you know, I met all of you guys. So the next day ALL of us went to Toronto for the last show and wanted ever, you know. So we put on the last shows ofc it was amazing. Then off we were on our little journey. So all that happened was the places we went and the shit that happened with Jacob. The stuff between you me and Finn. Um, then after tour, finn let me come home wi5 him for a week. So his dog. Rosie. She died. She was an amazing dog. She died from bone cancer. Finn was so fucking depressed, and, no one knows this, but he started cutting himself too. So, we felt like jumped off of a building but we didn't. So we came home one night and we heard Finns parents and nick yelling at each other. It scared his badly. He ran off into his room but I stood there traumatized. I went to Finns room. He was pacing around because he was having an anxiety attack. So I helped him then gave him an idea of running away. We smokes weed. Then we went to sleep to think about it. We woke up from a whole bunch of dings. Finn checked his phone. His Instagram was blowing up. He was even getting text messages. There was a video on his Instagram. It was a video of him and I smoking. We decided to get to the run away plan. So we stole him parents money. Then made our way, half way to LA. Leslie and Iris came and picked us up in Sacramento. We went back to Leslie's house and she let Finn stay with us. We were all talking about what had happened, in iris basement, after her parents went to sleep. Iris had wanted to run away too. We found out iris smokes even. So we went to our rooms and packed a whole bunch of blankets, pillows, snacks and drinks as well as our weed. We went out into the woods and found the little spot open where iris liked to sit. We made in comfortable. We smoked and looked up at the stars. We went back home and went to sleep. The next day, we started packing our bags. We were planning on going to Hawaii, like I said. And yeah. Iris and Finn are asleep and like I said, I'm sitting on some rocks in the water thinking about you...

Sadie- Holy fucking shit y/n... I'm so fucking sorry. That's- omg- that's just terrible. I'm sorry but I don't know what to say... are you okay?

Y/N- yeah I am now. I think everything's going to change.. but... I don't know what's going to happen..  hey, Sade?

Sadie- Yeah Y/N/N?

Y/N- do me a favor and go out on your balcony.

Sadie- ok... hang on.. Alright I'm out. What's up?

Y/N- watch. Here comes the sun...

Tears filled my eyes.
I heard a couple little cries from Sadie too.

Y/N- Sadie?

Sadie- Yeah?

Y/N- I love you...

Sadie- I love you too.

Word count- 1673
I'm surprised this only took me like 45 minutes 😂
Okay, so the big speech thing at the top took up 1,513 of the words...

I'm dead.
I'm not crying you are.
The ending did make me cry tho.
Trust me I'm sitting in a pool of tears.