☽ 𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐑 𝐁𝐄𝐁É ! ☽

Dancing||lovley

i woke up.
it was still super early.
the sun wasn't even up.
i looked at the time.
3:05 am
i quietly got up.
i walked back to irises house.
i grabbed my speaker and phone and a bottle of water.
i went into the empty room.
the one with hard floors and made all of windows.
the one that hung over the ocean.
i turned my music on and played...
Sonora...
i got in a position that readied me to dance.
my legs did all the moving.
my arm were thrown in the air.
my legs started to pick up.
they lingered in the air.
i let my body control my actions.
and i let my eyes control my tears.

it was towards the end of the song where i almost broke down crying.

i started to play more songs.
sadder songs.

i played
lovely by khalid and billie eilish.

the song started off slow.
i let my body off slow.
it started to get a little more faster and intense.
my body speed increased.
it slowed down again.
it was a variation of slow and fast.
the beat started to pick up again.
my body went from fast to slow.

i let my body drift.
it was all slow.
everything went quite except for my cries.
i laid on the ground.
i let out a few breathes of exhaust.

i cried not knowing why.

the lights dimmed.

i let my body let go of everything.

i felt lifeless.

i could feel anything.

my mind started to restore the bad stuff.

i could hear my moms screaming.

the flat lining.

my dads yelling voice.

finns yelling voice.

irises cries.

my own cries.

jacobs breathing.

sadie's humming.

gatens sweet voice.

the guitar i played.

the screaming of fans.

aylas cries.

millie's cries.

it was all my fault..

i let out one more breath.
i comes my eyes.
i was gone....

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