☽ 𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐑 𝐁𝐄𝐁É ! ☽

San Fransisco Days||Im in love with you but...

It was our two days in San Francisco.
We were getting cramped from being in the small bus.
We decided to get a hotel.
The hotel was super close to the Golden Gate Bridge.

We rented an old red convertible.
Finn, Millie, Noah, and I were the first ones to ride in it.
Finn and I sat in the back.
Millie drove us right over the bridge.
I stood and looked up at the sky.
It felt as if I were flying.
Finn locked his arms around my torso.
I turned my head to kiss him.
His eyes lit up.
He softly kissed the back of my neck.

We sat back down and went back to the hotel.

Later, the girls and I went shopping with, Finns, Jaedens, and Noah's credit cards 😂.
I bought more jeans, leggings and cut crop tops.

We went back to the hotel and hung out for the rest of the night.

It was around sundown.
I went outside and looked around.
I started to walk in the direction of the bridge.
I had my tea and phone with me.

I went on the sidewalk part of the bridge.
I sat down all the way on the edge and hung my legs over.
I held onto the rain as I drank my tea.
I thought deeply about a whole bunch of things.
I thought about my mom.
I thought about the Apatows.
I thought about Sadie.
I thought about Jacob.
I thought about myself even.

-y/n?- Gaten said.
-Fuck. Yeah?-
-What are you doing-
-nothing- I said not making eye contact.
-do you mind if I sit?- he asked.
-Sure- I said.
-Are you Okay?
-I'm just thinking about shit-
-you can vent...-
-well. My mom. The day after we left for tour, she sent me a text saying I'm very pissed off  with you. How could you? Your the worst daughter ever. Anyway. My dad. He left when I was 8. And, when we were in Los Angles for our show, I ran into him. So him and my mom came to the show. My mom was drunk. She had never drank in her life before. She acted like a total bitch. Another thing. Finn confessed his love to me and kissed me on stage. Everyone on social media started to call me a slut. So I tried to kill myself. Then my dad told me my mom was in the hospital. So I went and visited her. She died. My dad explained it was from alcohol poisoning. So Iris Apatows mom, Leslie adopted me because we met and bonded when we went to the first show in New York. So then I met you guys and went on our rode trip. Then, I ran into my abusive ex, Jacob. He gave me hickies. Finn beat him up. I ran back to the bus and he found me. He gave me fore hickies and hit me across the face a few times. Then all of you came in and saved me. So we moved to Michigan. Sadie and I kissed and fell in loved. Finn saw us kissing again one time and got super mad. So Jacob. He followed us and found me on the beach. He cut me and tied me up and tried to kidnap me. But lucky he brought me right next to the bus.
So then everyone came out and saved me ONCE AGAIN. So the next day, I had to decided weather I wanted finn or Sadie. I carved their names into my arms. I crossed out Sadie and chose Finn. So I talked to the, and they weren't mad.
Annnndd here we are today- the whole "speech" took me more than 10 minutes to explain.
-Wow. Holy shit y/n. I can't imagine how scared you are. I'm so sorry. But, you have us. No matter what, no matter where. We all love you- his words brought me tears.
I laid my head on his shoulder.
Hum.

More déjà vu.

Gaten and I soon started to walk back to the hotel.
-thanks for letting me vent Gaten-
-no problem. I'm here anytime-

I reached my room.
All the lights were off.
Finn was half asleep in bed.
I threw on a long shirt and stayed in my underwear.
I climbed into bed and covered myself up with the fluffy white blanket.
Finn rolled over and wrapped his arm around my torso.
He kissed my neck a few times.
I rolled over to where we were facing each other.
He opened his eyes right away.
-where did you go?- he asked.
-on a little walk- I lied.
I cuddled my head into the chest.
He kissed the top of my head.
Then..
We both fell asleep.

Word count- 814
I might post another chapter but idk.
Sorry for not posting for a while...