That night of ours

Chapter 10

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I thought a lot about this kiss. I wondered if it meant something to Shawn just like it did to me. You all must be asking aren't I sad because Justin just left last year and now I am hooking up with my boss. Justin wrote me a letter before he left. One of the stuff he wanted me to do after his death is to go on. And never give up. To find a new love and not just stand in my place. He made me promise. That is why I am happy that I kissed Shawn. But all I though about was that did it mean anything to him? Or I was just a normal girl he kissed and then we're done? Those thoughts hunted me till we went back to the tour bus. I went to have a hot shower to clear my head. I wore pair of sweatpants and a white hoodie. We were leaving Rio tonight. I think our next stop was London. I tied my hair up into a messy bun. I went out and saw him sitting on my bed. His eyes went up to me as I went out. He walked up to me. He didn't even wait. His lips already attached to mine. He kissed me harder than he did before. His hands were squeezing my waist. My hands were on his neck and in his hair. The door knocked again. Fuck! The hell man! Not now! It was Andrew. Shit! I almost forgot. If I had any sexual contact with my boss (I mean Shawn) I would leave. Oh god! "What is up, guys?" Andrew said smiling. Shawn shook hands with him. "Miss Charles." He said as he shook my hands. "Get ready Shawn! England is waiting!" He said in an exciting way. "Yay!" Shawn said trying to show that he cares. Andrew left the room. Shawn was about to kiss mw again. But I stopped him. "Wait!" I said as I sat on my bed. "What are we doing? This won't work out!" I said as I buried my face into my hands sighing. I could feel his hands tapping on my back. I looked at him. "We can at least try!" He said smiling. I smiled back at him. I then kissed him with a relive. I was relieved because he cared. Because he wanted me. Just like I wanted him. We kissed each other passionately. We stopped for a second for some breath. "I am in love with you, Toni Charles!" I could hear him say it. That he loved me. "I am so in love with you, Shawn Mendes!" I said as we went into kissing each other again. I could at least say that I have never felt this way in days more like years. That feeling that I am loved or blessed. I just felt happy.