Tell Her I'm Sorry

I ran through the hallways of the school until I reached the main doors. Once I was outside I finally let go of all the emotions that I had been keeping inside. Tears began pouring down my face until I could no longer see where I was going. As if by some miracle, I reached my car in the schools parking lot. I reached into my backpack to retrieve my keys but it was difficult due to the tears still streaming down my face.

Finally, I managed to grab my keys and I then unlocked my car and sat down. I threw my backpack into the passenger seat and I slammed my door shut. Instead of starting my car though, I just sat there. I sat there and let my thoughts swallow me in. I was taking in awkward breaths because of my continuous crying. I was beginning to feel lightheaded and I just prayed that sleep would take me. Just as I was about to pass out though, I heard a voice calling my name "Isabella!" Damn it! It was James and he was probably going to try and talk me into going back inside and talking to her. I couldn't do that though...not after what I said. James starting knocking on my cars window. "Open up the car Izzy". I shook my head as head as if he could see it. "No!" I yelled.

"What happened between you and Emily? I saw her crying in the hallway. Daniel's with her trying to calm her down. Please open the door Isabella". I relented and unlocked the doors. He walked around to the other side of the car and got in. I didn't look at him...I couldn't. I was ashamed of what I had said to Em. I heard James sigh and he turned to face me. "What the hell happened?" He wasn't going to leave me alone until I told him. I opened my eyes and looked at him. "James...I....I...I told Emily that I was too afraid to be with her. I love her James, more than anything but I'm so afraid of what people will say. You know my family...they would hate it and they would think it was a sin. I would be disowned". I closed my eyes again and waited for his response. "Isn't Emily more important than all that? I nodded my head. "Then I don't understand what the problem is". I looked at him. "I thought you loved her ". My eyes widened in shock. Of course I love Emily. I love her more than anyone or anything in this entire world. "I do love her. James, Emily is my everything and I love her with all my heart and with every fiber of my being". I think I shocked him with the serious conviction in my voice. It was the absolute truth. I knew, deep down, that Emily was my soulmate. "Ok fine, but why won't you be with her? You know that she feels the exact same way, right?". I nod my head and begin to cry again. James shakes his head sadly and looks out his window. "What are you gonna do now?".

I take a deep breath and look at him "I'm going to stay away from her. She deserves someone better then me. But can you please do something for me?". My voice is pleading. "I can't believe you...you're just gonna give up?....ok fine, what do you want me to do?". I take a deep breath. "Tell her that I love her and that I will always love her. Tell her that I just want her to be happy and....and tell her I'm sorry".