Tell Her I'm Sorry

Living

I walk into school unprepared for how it would feel after last night. I ended up sleeping in my car and by sleep I mean, tossing and turning in my backseat until the sun rose. But I'm here now and I'm more than ready to tell Emily how I feel. I walk to our lockers and wait patiently for her to arrive. I don't have to wait very long because she appears just a few minutes later. I look at her and smile. She tries to smile back but it doesn't reach her eyes like it use to. "Hey Em" I say. She looks at me and quietly says hey back. I ask her if we can talk and she says yes. I'm honestly surprised, I assumed she wouldn't want to speak to me after our last conversation. We walk all the way to the band room, it was one ironically one of the quietest places in the school. "So I have something I wanna say and I don't know how to even start. I guess a good place would be to apologize for the other day. It's literally my worst nightmare come true watching you cry. I hate it. I promised myself I'd never make you cry and then I went and broke that promise. Em...I...I...god...Emily, I love you so god damn much and I've wanted to tell you that for so long. It's been eating away at me for years and I've been struggling to keep everything inside when all I wanted to do was hug you and kiss you. I was a coward and I don't want to be a coward anymore. I don't know if you can forgive me but I needed to tell you. Please forgive me. I can't live without you." Emily was silent as she stared at me. I couldn't read anything in her eyes which was a shock because normally I could tell everything about her. She looked down at the ground and then began to speak. "You hurt me Bella. You hurt me so much, I felt like I couldn't breath. For the last few days I feel like all I've done is cry for you...but...despite all of the hurt I've felt...I love you too Bella. I've always loved you, ever since we were little kids and we gave each other those tiny plastic rings and pretended we were married. I knew even then that I would always choose you. I do forgive you Isabella...and I really want to kiss you now." I'm in shock and I don't have any more time to think about what she said before I'm being kissed by the love of my life. Her lips are so soft and her hands find their way around my neck. I eventually move my arms and place my hands gently on her hips. We kiss for some time and when we finally pull apart, we are breathless. I smile at her and she smiles back and I know that no matter what happens next, we'll be alright because we are stronger together than any force of nature.

I'm ready to live my life as I've always dreamed about. I'm so ready to be the person I always wanted to be. My dream has come true and I will never forget this moment.