Girls Like Girls | JenLisa

Epilogue: And it ends with a colorful rainbow

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Hello to all the wonderful readers of this book.

First of all, I want to apologize if the story ended that way. So as a 500 reads celebration here's an epilogue for all of you!

Hope you enjoy it!

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It was like lightning. It was quick, sudden and surprising. That's how I ended up loving my best friend, Lisa. But it took me so long before I was able to tell her. And once I got the courage and chance to do so, it was all too late. However, there are also lot of other possibilities that could happen if I told her earlier. It could even get worse so I don't really regret not telling her earlier. I'm satisfied that at least she already knew I love her.

She left for Barcelona without even saying goodbye which hurt me more. But half of my heart understood her. I know it was hard for her to bid farewell especially after that conversation we had that night. BUT it still made me cry for months.

It's painful to live a life without Lisa because everything reminds me of her. I focus a lot with my work but she would just rudely comes up in my mind every single time. Most of the time, when I'm composing a song. I try to find other inspirations but she's the only one that energizes my musical stimulus. Because of that, majority of my songs were full of sadness. Despite that, my boss seems to like my melodramatic melodies.

One of my song was released and sung by our company's rising star. I'm very happy, as well as the management, because she was able to portray the pain and sadness of my song very well. The song became a hit and top a lot of charts which made me so proud. I didn't expect that my down fall could give me this much happiness. Because of that, I continued writing songs mostly about the pain love gives us. As I have observed, it is something all of us can relate to. Love could give us the most lethal pain but it is still the most wonderful feeling in the world.

It took me a long time to finish my song for Lisa. The one I played at James' party. I stopped working on it after she left. I lost the interest on finishing it. But one day, I was so depressed while composing a song. I can't match the melody and lyrics so I started playing my song for Lisa, just to ease myself. I pressed the keys, luckily my heart still knows it. And I sang my heart out. The lyrics that has been kept for a long time. The words I always wanted her to hear, but she never did.

I heard a clap from my back and turned to see my boss. He liked the song so much and wanted me to finish it. He planned on releasing that song for our star's sophomore album. At first, I was hesitant. That song is sentimental for me and I only intended it for Lisa to hear. However, I finished the song. Well, I have to obey the boss. I submitted the demo of the song and everyone loves it. My heart was jumping with joy from all the compliments. Because of that, I didn't thought twice to release the song.

I was so picky and strict when we recorded the song. Of course, it's not just an ordinary song. It's my song for Lisa and it should be perfect. I was so disappointed because I can't feel the love and pain I wanted to hear from the song when the singer was recording it. We repeated it several times but she can't still hit it. My boss seems to agree with me. He can't hear the same feeling he heard when I sang the song for the demo. Because of that we decided to stop the recording and reschedule it some other time.

It disappointed me that I might not be able to release the song because it doesn't fit the artist. As I walk outside the studio, my boss followed me and told me to come see him at his office. When I came to his office, he asked me to play the piano and sing my song. I was confused why he asked me, but I did what I was told. I sang the song as I imagined Lisa beside me. I imagined singing it to her. In the middle of the song my boss stood up on his seat and went beside me.

"That's exactly what I want to hear." My boss said and the next thing I knew I'm in front of a mic recording my debut single. It was crazy. I wasn't expecting that. After recording, my boss told me that he's been observing me for a long time. He told me that I'm more than a music producer and I'm the real hidden gem of our label. He told me how much he wants me to debut as a singer and he had already talked about it with the higher-ups. He made them listened to my demo then he proposed that if ever the song would not fit for our singer then they should let me have it. At first, the executives were hesitant of the proposal. You know, who is Jennie and how can we sell her song? Music is still a business for them. 

The executives were present during my recording which made me very nervous. I felt the sweat in my hands and forehead. I almost felt throwing up. But it went smooth and they were impressed with me. And because of that, they eventually approved my boss' proposal. And I dropped my first single which landed on several charts. After I released a successful song, it was followed by an EP full of my own produced songs. Of course, it was also a huge success. I won awards such as Best New Artist and Song of the Year. And yes, you guess it right, It Was Summer  won. The song I made for Lisa received a lot of recognition. But I wonder if she had listened to it. Was she able to feel my undying love for her from the song?

After receiving notable achievements, I became a household name in the music industry. I have to admit, I enjoy the attention I'm receiving. But don't get me wrong, it's not because of the glamorous things fame can offer. It's because many people can relate to my songs. I love receiving letters and even comments on SNS accounts telling me how much my songs inspired them. It feels so great having these connections with my supporters. Love is really our common denominator. We all feel love. And we still continue loving despite the pain because love is the most powerful thing in world. It makes us do beautiful and wonderful acts to each other which we badly needed now. You know, there are a lot of horrible events happening today and in my opinion love is the only solution.  Well, that is deep.

Anyway, I'm happy now. I have started a new life. But I don't want to be a hypocrite, I still haven't moved on from Lisa. It still hurts. Of course, I lost not just the love of my life but also my best friend. Sooner, I know I will be able to forget about the pain. BUT not Lisa. I still love her and I will continue loving her but with lesser pain. I pray every night hoping that one day we can meet again. Honestly, I just want Lisa back in my life. It doesn't matter if she'll be a friend or a lover. What matters is she is by my side again. I also hope she still loves me. Of course, it also doesn't matter if it's as a friend or a lover. As long as we love each other and we can go back being the normal Jennie and Lisa, I'm good with that. My busy lifestyle is keeping me away from thinking sad things but when I'm alone I always long for her. That's the sad reality. But I know one day a rainbow will show up in my sky and everything will get back again.

Three months ago, my world tour started. I'm done with Asian and; Northern and South American stops. Currently, I'm on my Europe tour and I'm enjoying it so much. The show in Paris was so crazy and the crowd was so amazing. I'm definitely coming back. And last night was the Berlin show. The German fans are so sweet. I received a lot of fan letters which warms my heart so much. And guess where's my next show?

Barcelona.