Another Broken Eternity

pain and fire

i want to burn it all to the ground.
every dream, every hope,
every feeling, every story
i've dared to ever possess.
i want to burn it all.

i want to see the ugliness
behind my truths
and i want to stare it in the eye
and i want to see my reflection
staring back at me.

i want the bruises
and the spilt blood
and the scars
marking every inch
of my body.

i want to burn it
and i want to run
far enough away
where even the wind
doesn't know my name.

i want to burn it
until even the flames
are incapable of causing me pain.
and when i burn the pain
i will burn the numbness, too.

and i will burn
and burn
and burn
the whole world to the ground
and it will still not be enough.

and after the world is ash
and the air is smoke
and i'm the only thing left
i will still burn
until everything that was ever alive inside me dies.

until i even burn the fire.
and my dreams and hopes
and feelings and stories
are nothing but ashes.
and so am i.

-all the pain and fire in the world
will never be enough for me