| inner thoughts and feelings |

xliv. poetry

the darkness creeps from behind
wrapping around me and holds me tight
warm whispers in my ears
of all my sins and dirty secrets
all my biggest and worst fears
feelings and memories i'd wished to forget
resurface in the darkness
in the stillness of night
practically paralyzed by my own fear
unable to move
to speak
just listening
listening still to the voices
and seeing their cheshire cat grins
fear travels up my spine
and into my mind
my heart rate skyrockets and i clench my eyes shut tight
tears
fall
rolling down my cheeks
choked sobs
destroys
the silence
the darkness grips at my feet
my wrists
and neck
i can't breathe
body shaking in fear
fear of the darkness that surrounds me and whispers that drive me mad
eyes shut i pray for mornings light
i pray for the warmth of the sun
for the comfort of early morning
to save me from this nightmare.