Paynes pov
I wake up in my bunk .
My head hurts like fuck and I'm thirsty .
I get up to get water and asprin
I walk into living/kitchen room and I see tony and Vic asleep on each other . " y'all are cute ." I said as I chuckled . They both jumped up and tackled me in a hug . " Payne , are you okay ?" Tony asked me worried . " now yes . Just needed some sleep ." I huffed out with a smile . " why didn't you tell us he called you and texted you ?" Vic said sternly. Sudden realization swept over me .
Flash back
" just wait till you get home , you know what you are a worthless ,nothing, slut who can die , maybe then you'll really be happy . "
" gladly ." I said and hung up the phone. I walk toward my bunk and grabbed my " makeup bag" I went straight to the bathroom and pull out my 1st best friend . I looked down at my scared skin and thought all the horrible things
Nothing
Slut
Wanna be
Worthless
Your parents wanted to die
One slice two slice four .
The sensation gave me relief but also hurt me .
Good.
I heard the turn of a door handle and the bath room door swung open .
" Payne what the fuck ." I looked up to see Jack from all time low starring at my wrist.
" I -I -d-did-didn't mean ..." I couldn't even finish my sentence I just started to cry . I looked down ashamed of myself . That's when I saw my wrist. There was blood every where . I had gone to far this time .
End of flash back .
" dammit guys I'm sorry ," I sighed and ran a hand through my hair .
" you had us all worried , mr.Carlile was watching you all night ."
I looked up at them and smiled . " oh gee the guy I like thinks I'm a attention whore."
" not really , when jack called Matty they both ran to the bus as fast a they could . And Matty explain the situation. He was worried . I think you have a man friend . " I smirked and sat down
To tell my Sean story
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" I go hard in the mother fucking paint nigga !" I screamed and jumped along to OG LOKO. And Tino played his set like there was no tomorrow .
" meet , my dedication , inspiration ." Aron sang out
As the song ended I screamed like the fan girl I am . I saw Austin and he smiled and winked at me .
"Thank you and we are of mice and men !" Austin yelled into the mic And walked of stage . I hoped into the photographers pit cause that's where u would be able to get to side stage Without screaming fans following me . I got to the side and saw Austin talking to Alan ashby . ALAN ASHBY . I ran up and jumped on Austin's back . " holy shit I'll get security !" Alan yelled. " I kissed Austin's cheek and he knew who it was instantly . " no princess no ! This is Payne the merch girl ." " oh the one you won't stop talking about . Your right she's b-e-a -u-tiful . " he straighten up his posture . " Alan carlile , I mean ashby at your service . " he took my hand and kissed it . " might I show you around the venue witch you have already seen ?" I giggle and nodded but Austin took my hand . " as much as she would love to hang out with a ginger, me and miss Allen have some business to discuss of . " and he picked me up and put me over his shoulder and ran . " dammit , she's pretty ." Alan yelled towards us .
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We walk to the beach from the venue cause we were in Ventura , so it was fairly close . " so I heard you watched me like a hawk last night ." I said breaking the silence .
" well I was worried so .."
" I really should explain myself ."
" you really don't have too , Matty told me. "
I sighed .
" so yea ."
" you shouldn't be with someone like that ."
" I know but he's all I have left ."
" you have me ." He looked into my eyes .
" I wouldn't EVER. Hurt you , you're too perfect . No one should harm beauty ." I smiled and turned bright red . He look into my eye then his eyes flickered to my lips then back up . I leaned in and my lips soon connected to Austin's .
All that space all that air , that's what I was dancing on when we kissed . I hope he felt it too .
Cause it'd be a damn shame .
A/n :
Hey guys .
I want some girl friends for my boys !
So here I need girl friends for
Alex g.
Jamie p.
Mike f.
Aaron p.
So yea spots are limited to message me who you would want and the a second and third choice .
But listen 1st come 1st serve . So don't get mad cause I will have another contest soon !
Put how you would like to be pot rayed in the message box !
Ps title credit goes to of mice and men
Your not alone
Love ya !
- Teir
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Fiksi Penggemar" never meant to hurt nobody . I only meant to do this to myself " That's what I thought would be okay when I constantly tried to take myself out of this world . I didn't think that I would find a man who didn't beat me . I didn't think I'd meet on...
