4 years have passed.
Rizz Pov:
Im now one of the fangirl of this group. I never thought i would be like this. I found myself being addicted with this. They are the reason that i showed off my talent. Sometimes i dreamed how if i tried to get an audition because my classmates always tells me that maybe im capable. But i know in myself that is not enough. Besides im too young for that thing but now it is one of my dream while im not even deciding what i want to be in future.
I think the years have passed i have a crush on that guy (Jeize) but now? I just found myself and think that im inlove on him. I even create an account on twitter just to be updated. Also watching them if they are live on tv or broadcastings. I even call myself his girlfriend! Yeahh that was funny! I dreamed too much. But i cant help it! My friends even call me crazy! Yeahh i admit it. Also i make them join our fanclub. We danced their choreo.
I thought being a fan is just easy but not because we want to see them in person by coming to their concert or fan meetings and i dont have enough money to come. I want to scream along with the fans in concert, i want to sing with them, dance with them, and support our idols also learn their language to understand them and to communicate with the international fans.
I always beleive that one day i will see them. And i want to be close to them, of course every fan wants it to happen even just friends would be enough to fullfil our dreams. We wish to come to their country and places. And believe that one day all of this will happen.
I was drown in my own thoughts until my friend call me.
Milie: Yah! Rizz!
Me: Ye-yeah!
Milie: aisshh you were thinking about him again did'nt you?
Me: Of course! I wont deny it. You know how much i love them.
Milie: yeah until now and you even influence me and now im inlove with Caze because of you.
Me: oh its my fault?
Milie: yeah! Its your fault! Hahaha
Me: Hahaha but you like it.. ayieee
I tickled her.
Milie: Yah! Stop it!!!
Me: Okay hahaha by the way where is Venny and the others?
Venny: Rizz!!! Jeize's wife!
Me: Venny!! A's wife!!
We laughed at our own endearment.
Kris: Hey Rizz! What's the update? Anything about Joon?
Me: ooohh Joon's wife hahahaha your husband always tweet you know than mine its very rare maybe he just tweet 3 times in a year.
Kris: It's because Joon wants me to see him always
Me: ayiiiee lets dream again hahaha
Halley: Yah its lunch you know! Lets eat!
Jane: yeah! Lets eat!!
Me: These two is always hungry!
We pulled our chairs into circle and put out our lunch box. We shared our foods because we were used to it since we were in first year high school. They are my best friends. We've experienced alot together that was our memories. We shared our problems and advised each other for us to forget our problems.
We are always like this until we reach our moving up program. And go to our summer vacations. Still in vacation we are still updated about every one its like we will be barely see each other because when we will go to our senior high school, we will be studying in different school.
Vacation;
Me and ash always talk about Jeize and her love "Jaziel" on the phone.
She even told me she was my cupid because she knows one day me and and Jeize will be together. Sometimes i want to believe her but I know if there was a chance it will be 1%. Yeahh sometime we dreamed too much but we need to face the reality that they even did'nt know i exist in the world. But i still want to support him until the end.
Sometimes others asked me "what if Jeize got a girlfriend? What will you do?"
And here i am always answered them that "even if its hurts me, i will just support them because thats what a fan means right? And i would want to be a friend of his girlfriend because i admired her that Jeize fall for her but i wish that was me.."
Ash told me that I was too kind to accept that even if it hurts me i will just support them. But for me that what love means.
Ash: Rizz i know someday he will know you and even fall for you.
Me: i always wish that. But there is just a small chance that he will love me. Because im just a fan, un ugly fan.
Ash: No you're not! How can you say that! My brother even see you beautiful and how many guys was trying to court you huh?!
Me: Hahaha maybe they just want to play with my feelings but sorry im not interested.
Ash: You were too drowned in Jeize and I know that.
Me: You always know that hahaha
Ash: Well i know when the two of you meet it will be a great love story!
Me: why though?
Ash: You know Im so upset that i always dreamed about the two of you! I wish i dreamed about Jaziel too. You and him were is so sweet you know! Its makes me feel like i just wanna say " okay? Ill just leave the two of you. I envy you!"
Me: Really hahaha! I wish someday it will happen. You know we need to face the reality.
Ash: Yeah just like " The moment that we fell in love with someone who doesnt know we exist"
Me: yeah... but lets just hope and hope
Ash: yeah because i know the two of you will be together in the future.
Me: How did you know?
Ash: You know Im your cupid.
Me: Hahaha wished it was really you Ash"
Ash: Just trust me. Rizz I gotta go! I have more things to do. Bye!
Me: Okayy bye!!
After that, we ended our call. I sighed and look at my posters.
" One day I will meet all of you. And I wished I can be with you"....
(A/N): Hey! How was it? I know it was lame but please bear with it. Sorry for the grammar and wrong spelling. Saranghaeyo!!
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