Disconnected

Chapter 12

Luke's POV

I was so glad Niall decided to come earlier than he had originally planned. Not just because it makes it a lot easier rehearsing for the big concert on Saturday night but because I really did miss Niall to, he is one of my bestest friends in the whole world. I wish he could just stay in Aussie forever, and the other 1D boys too.

I really hope Niall gets Delilah some decent clothes now, because I don't want a girlfriend that looks like a prostitute. Or maybe she secretly is and that's why she has so many short, revealing items of clothing, that couldn't keep a stick warm. Anyway I couldn't wait until the concert, I was really excited to play for all our Sydney fans, the girls that have been here since the start. And well Delilah would find out who 5 Seconds of Summer really are, and that voice that she loves is infact mine.

Rehearsals were pretty much normal, they weren't boring but they weren't exactly the best thing that has ever happened to me. All Calum, Ashton and Michael were talking about was Delilah. I think they all like her a lot more than me. Well they could have her. I wouldn't give two shits. The drive home was pretty much the same too, I stayed quiet listening to music like always, while the other 3 laughed and talked.

It looked like Niall and Delilah were already home, because Niall's car was parked outside our house. I slowly dragged myself inside, straight to my room because that's where I spent most of my life, on my bed playing Fifa. I walked into my room to see literally about 20 bags of clothes and shit on my bed that were obviously Delilah's. I guess her and Niall were in the kitchen or somewhere. I really wanted to peek at her clothes but she'd probably come in and eat me. I just really wanted to play Fifa but there was shit all over my bed.

I walked into the kitchen, and sure enough Niall and Delilah were there eating food. I gave Niall a big hug, I hadn't really actually got to say 'hello' this morning because we were all in such a rush.

"Delilah, can you please move your shit of my bed?" I calmly asked her, not trying to sound annoyed.

"Umm yeah I will sorry, I just don't have anywhere to put everything" Delilah responded, immediately leaving the kitchen heading up stairs. I didn't really think of that. I guess she could keep all her clothes in a guest room.

"Wait up, I'll help you." I sighed grabbing a few bags, carrying them to the closet guest room while Delilah followed me. It took quite a few trips between the two of us to transfer all of her clothes, to the guest room. I really wish Niall had taken my card. He must of spent about $6000 on Delilah just in one day. I was about to leave and go and catch up with Niall, but I couldn't help but notice a small green box that had obviously fallen out of the supermarket bag.

"Are they what I think they are?" I blurted out, approach the box to make sure my eye sight was correct.

"Luke, it's not what it looks like I promise" Delilah stuttered.

"How the fuck do you mean it's not what it looks like? How that fuck isn't it what it looks like? I suppose it's just a box of lollies in a condom box, I should of fucking guessed" I ranted.

"Luke.... it's not like that....." Delilah replied.

I went to grab the box of condoms, accidently pulling out another box too, that happened to be a pregnancy tester. "And this too? Why did you make Niall get you this? Who the fuck are you planning on fucking Delilah? Because it's certainly not going to be me or one of the other boys! You're a slut just as I thought" I continued.

"LUKE, STOP YELLING AT ME!!" Delilah screamed, with tears streaming down her face, just before storming out of the room leaving me standing there alone gobsmacked.

I just stood in the same spot alone, still and shocked for several minutes. "What the fuck did you do Luke?" Niall questioned me obviously furious with me....

"Nothing Niall, I just don't want to date her if she plans on fucking someone" I replied.

"Luke! You are so fucking dumb. I bought them for you boys as a joke. You need to fucking sit down with your girlfriend and apologize. She is the sweetest girl I have ever met, and you're just lucky enough to have her. If you plan on staying in this band, I'd fucking get your act together and stop treating everyone like shit" Niall fumed, before storming off. "Oh and I'm going to go support your beautiful girlfriend, since your obviously not going to" he continued before slamming the door.

I was such a dick. Niall would hate me now. And Delilah already hated me. And the other boys would hate me too. Why couldn't I be perfect like the other boys? Like Ashton for example was perfect. He never did anything wrong. He was Marcus's favourite. He was a lot of the fans favourite. I was once, but they said I changed into an asshole.

Nobody liked me anymore. Was there even any point in me staying in this band? I was just ruining everyone's life, just because of something that happened to me in the past. I wanted to change and be a better person. But I just didn't know how.

Know I understand why Delilah hates me. And it hurts, because deep down inside, I know I don't feel the same way about her. But this was just a contract, a fake relationship.

Delilah would never truly be mine, and I'd never truly be hers.